ASL

04/28/2009

ASL.
in the internet world, it means age, sex, location.but in the high school world, it means Acedemic Service Learning. more and more high schools across america are making ASL a requirement to graduate. its not hard to do, but its time consuming. here, we have to have three in order to graduate. the deadline is today for this requirement...and i finished filling out the paper work for my last one about...5 minutes ago!!

whatever though. ive been really frustrated since thursday. josh told me he is going to california...and he doesnt know when hes coming back; if he even is coming back. he wants to try to find a job out there and then fly me out there...but who the fuck knows whats gonna happen with that...

then we've been fighting because tommy carver called me sunday night when josh, pj and i were at the bar...apparently tommy asked for me and pj was like, yeah, shes here hold on...and handed the phone to josh. then josh gets off the phone and says who the fuck is tommy carver? AHH! after that, we got into a huge fight cause he has a hard time trusting people because of cassy...idfk. its kind of annoying. not gonna lie.

i havent talked to him since monday morning. i think hes mad at me...i said some pretty hurtful things to him sunday night. he was drunk...i had a slight buzz. but like...grr. its just frustrating how he doesnt trust me. i want things to work, but he is leaving in less than a week...and even though he says if he can find a job, he will fly me out there and we can get an appartment together and i could just stay there until august when i leave for bootcamp.

it kind of all seems too good to be true. and like, stephanie was telling me that im young and hes just one guy and i shouldnt worry and blah blah blah...but last time she gave me advice about a guy, and the guy and i broke up, she started dating him like...two weeks later. then there was the brian thing...FUCK. i always get fucked over. im used to it! haha.

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thats probably not a good thing though.
i dont know. im stressing kinda. graduation is coming FAST.
im not ready for it.
fuckmylife

love. peace.
-kirstie♥