can't you see that this is killing me it's hurting my s

02/25/2009

It's a shame that it had to be this way It's not enough to say I'm sorry It's not enough to say I'm sorry Maybe I'm to blame Or maybe were the same But either way I can't breathe Either way I can't breathe All I had to say is goodbye Were better off this way Were better off this way I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive Cause everything were been through And everything about you Seemed to be a lie A guiltless twisted lie It made me learn to hate you Or hate myself for letting it pass by All I had to say is goodbye Were better off this way Were better off this way All I had to say is goodbye Were better off this way Were better off this way And every, everything isn't only What it seemed so hold these Words that you never told me Its time to say goodbye Its time to say goodbye Its time to say goodbye Goodbye Bye Take my hand away Spell it out Tell me I was wrong Tell me I was wrong Take my hand away Spell it out Tell me I was wrong Tell me I was wrong Take my hand away Spell it out Tell me I was wrong Tell me I was wrong

i think im gonna send this to matthew.
i need to move on from him, im just scared to do so.
its not that i dont want to be friends with him i just think that holding on to him in that manner is what's keeping me there...attached.
i dont know what to do...my heart and my head are telling me to do two different things...then you have my friends and family telling me different things...most of them dont want me talking to me then the really good friends know that i still love him no matter how much i say i dont.
then i have tommy. we have been flirting non-stop lately and i do like him...i have liked him since i was a wayy little kid. i just dont know what im thinking...my mind is closing...i cant take any of it anymore.
i need to get away.
thank god spring break is coming up cause kayte...HEREICOME
love. peace.
-kirstie♥