...the letter i was supposed to write...and the response. | 02/24/2010 |
cuteeeee.
so, ive started this letter countless times...not only on paper, but also in my head...
i havent exactly been able to come up with the right words...and ive been trying, really i have...i just dont know the right words to say.
it was obvious to just about everyone around the last few days that you and i had some kind of connection. i felt it, you felt it and haha. jackie and jake saw it.
five, six days isnt a long time to spend with someone, and in those few days that we spent together, it was fantastic. i had such a good time and to think that you left now just...it sucks. but i know you have obligations and stuff...i just wish it didnt have to end so soon...
[the time we spent together.]
i really hope that we continue to keep in contact.
you truly are a sweetheart and i am anxious to see where this goes.
hopefully it goes further than manistee 
i miss you and i cant wait to hear from you again!
xoxo.
Kirstie ♥
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i know what i felt with you was amazing and im hoping what i felt was real and its not just another dead end... i know you are excited to see what happens with this and so am i... but you have to understand that because of my job it requires me to be gone alot... and that requires patience... and of course i know everyone saw what was between me and you it radiated off both of us any time we were close or we knew we were about to be close... i do want this to go farther and be more but like in my past im worried that yet again im going to find myself in a bind where im left standing alone... it was a very short time spent together and really hard to judge whether or not this will develop into something more than we have but i have been hurt many times in the past and im willing to take that chance with you... unfortunately that requires you to wait for me while im gone until i can find a chance to settle down and relax.................................................. i know that the feelings that i have for you are not ordinary for me to have for someone im usually extremely defensive but i have let that down a bit with you something about you sends goosebumps (the good ones) down my back when my nose recalls a smell that reminds you of me or when im laying in bed thinking when i wake up you will be right there or when i start talking to you only to realize that you are no where near but i can still feel you right next to me... i know you have had a rough couple years as well and im asking you to do as i have done and try and put that behind you and look only ahead to the future... i dont know what else to say right now im sorry if this does not explain to you enough of how i have been feeling...but.... i miss you and think of you constantly and dream of only holding you again in my arms and my lips pressed against yours while we lay together only to fall asleep and awake again looking into each others eyes... i know how i feel about you and i hope you feel the same way... i miss you Kirstie
Chris
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i miss everything.
from the first time we kissed to you saying mean things to me at your aunt kellys [] to the night at the bar, to the last kiss before you left here & everything in between.
i understand that your job requires a lot of patience on my end...ill be honest... ive never done the whole...long distance thing. but its something that i am willing to do because of the instant connection we had together, the hopes that something wonderful will come from this & the fact that i really do like you. i guess my big thing is...like you, i dont want to be hurt...i dont want this to be another dead end...
i find myself thinking about you all the time...everytime jackies phone rings i hope its you & it usually never is. & it kinda makes me sad, but then when you do call, it just makes things that much more exciting for me.
i remember when you first got here...jackie invited you back over...i was hoping like hell you would come back...& you did. everything just kinda...went from there.
then you brought jackie & i flowers. i was so flabbergasted, i didnt know what to say. ive only gotten roses from one other person beside you. & that was from my mom for my sweet 16. so you have to understand that that meant a lot to me...especially because of what transpired afterwards.
we have a lot of chemistry together, chemistry im pretty sure i havent felt for someone so fast. & to be completly honest...it kinda freaked me out a little. but, in a good way.
ugh. i miss you kissing my nose & my forhead.
i miss the feeling of you holding me when we were outside smoking cause i was cold.
i miss falling asleep in your arms & waking up in the middle of the night, rolling over & seeing you sleeping next to me, then waking up super early in the morning cause you had something to do...
man.
i know what im feeling.
and im glad you told me what you felt...
it was very reassuring.
i miss you.
Kirstie
love.
peace.
-kirstie♥ |
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