BLOOPERS HELP!!! I NEED ADVICE!!!!!

See a doctor. Classic signs of depression. They can give you meds that will help a TON.

Herbally, St. John's Wart and Kava-Kava can also help this considerably, either in pill or tea form. They do NOT, however, help as much as what the doctor can dispense.

Whatever route you decide on, stick with it even if it doesn't seem to help at first. It will, ,but it takes time. I've sooo been there.

yep, see a doctor. Or stand in front of the mirror every day and repeat 'i am allowed to enjoy myself. I deserve to be happy.' over and over. Sounds stupid but it gets in your head.

oh yeah the above doesn't work unless you keep at it every day. You dont even have to believe what youre saying.

Yes it's depression, I know it from first hand. Lately though I've been doing somewhat better. I tell myself that I'm hot everyday [even when I'm at worst like just waking up] It's a real confidence booster. I haven't felt myself have "real fun" in years though.

I don't want to scare you at all but it also could sound like the early signs of Schizophrenia [ http://www.schizophrenia.com/diag.php ]. You may want to look into your family's medical history to get an idea, because schizophrenia and depression are often inherited. For example, my Mom had schizophrenia therefore, medically I have/had pre-disposition for schizophrenia, I have/had [don't know because it still could show up] a 10% chance of developing it. [Not to scare you even more] but usually girls happen to develop signs of schizophrenia when they're in highschool. Even if it's not in your family's history it is possible to skip generations. I've done some research on the mental disorder myself. They do have medication you can take if you're diagnosed and please do take it if that's what it happens to be. You'll be able to live a normal life.

You're welcome. I'm actually seeing a therapist soon. I don't want to but my parents are paying for it and I figure what the hell. I have major trust issues so I think it's time to get over that and the blockage I cause with people in my life. I let my depression get me fired even.

I just keep thinking about you and your confusion, because at your age I felt the same way only I didn't have it down to where I knew something may be wrong up there with me, I was in denial and still am. I am a guru, I can find information and pretty much anything on the web. I found some personality test's that you you can take online, if you want a probable cause or guesstimate for what could be attacking your head, I suggest that you take a few of them, it doesn't have to be one after the other, you can take breaks. I'm very interested in how the mind works so I'm constantly taking tests like these to figure myself out. What I have to say about the schizophrenia though [and you probably don't have it] is take your medicine if you ever find out that you do, or someone you know does because my BirthMother had it, and she stopped taking the meds and it made everything worse [I wrote about my family history somewhere in my diary] she finally just one day decided to "check out" I was 3 months, and now I don't know her, she's just a memory everyone brings up and it sucks. Also keep in mind that signs of depression and bi-polar are also found in people who have it, so you really need to go and see a psychologist to get a proper diagnosis. I read that you're in therapy currently? Maybe discuss with your therapist that you want to make sure that everything is okay up there, maybe do a brainwaves scan? I had one done years ago. I was in foster care for 16 years so I've been to every doctor imaginable, I really hated the neurologist though the most, he made me feel stupid.

Last week I had blood drawn and tomorrow I have to see the therapist so I wonder if she's going to put me on medicine? I haven't taken any since I was 18 when medicade cut me off but I defiantly want to know her diagnosis.

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

http://www.healthyplace.com/psychological-tests/

http://psychcentral.com/quizzes/schizophrenia.htm

http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder.html

http://www.sociopathic.net/enter.htm
[You defiantly don't sound like a sociopath but this website has tests on it, I've taken them before out of boredom on the navigation link on the top you want to click the link that says MISC and there is a list of short Personality Disorders Quiz zes]