So sorry that I haven't been writing (actually typing) for a while now. It's because of many new things happening in my life. IT's about a month or 2 into the new school year and, it's been really different. In the summer, I had no contact to that guy i happen to like, and it was like driving me INSANE! I was sooo excited for the first day of school, expecting something awesome to happen. But what surprised me was, he wasn't in any of my classes, he didn't talk to me, i waved to him, he saw but didn't wave back?
I felt kinda down, that weekend, i didn't think about him anymore. So at night, i suddenly realize, did i still like him? No, i listened to my heart, I felt it, and no, there's no excitement or tingle when i think about his name anymore. I'm free.
And it's not like i wanted to like him either, i was soo happy when i realized i didn't like him anynmore (like like) but, I still wouldn't mind if he would talk to me and at least be my friend.
I told my bffs and they were like OMG U DON'T!? they were so happy i finally moved on, after all, i did like like him for like a YEAR. So then there's a student council ellection, after all the results were in, everyone was taking down posters of the VOTE FOR ME & stuff like that. I go to my locker at the end of the day and I see "him" covered in stuco (student council) flyers, posters. Everyone surrounded him taking pictures like he was some kind of model. Disgusted, I walked away, even though it WAS kinda funny. (lol)
At home i decided to txt him asking why was he covered in papers. he didn't answer, i waited, and waited, and WAITED. *silence* no answer. OH well, i deleted the conversation. A week passes by, and no answer. I don't mind because i totally forgot about it. So wednesday night, im playing words with friends on my ipad, and DING! I look up at the notification and there it says his name, and a txt. With my mouth gaped open, I slowly replied to the txt.
We talk for a while and I ask him if he had words with friends. He said yeah so we started playing. He had this ridicolous username so i was all like nice username dude and he said thanks with this smiley face that was... blushing?
Weirds so we start playing, and he got so competetive. The next day I was excited to tell my bff cuz i KNEW she was gonna scream when she heard. I completely forgot until lioke 3 hours into school. SO in school we were allowed to have ipads, the whole grade has em. so we were in chorus and just about to go in and practice with the rest of the class when I was like nudging her repeating her name over and over cuz she wasn't listening. She looked at me and I was like i want to show u something. So i open up my messages and show here it making sure she saw the name of who i was talking to. After about like 5 seconds she FINALLY realized it and with her mouth open, she ran out of the room screaming.
Wow definetly expect that, everyone was looking so i just started laughing and i chased after her. She was like omg omg omg omg so she asked if she could read the convo and i was like no! i'll show u later. During the day, i encountered him 2 times, and each time he was like im gonna beat you! so yeah, it's a start to becoming friends again.
So now. the present. as i'm typing away, i wonder what will happen in the future, will we always just be talking about beating each other in a silly app, or will we actually be good friends, maybe best friends? But I'm happy, so so so happy, but not in the way that i WOULD hae been, heart pumping me blushing, no. the way that a new future has a rosen. and i know this is how it's suppose to be. I want him to be my good friend, and that's all. I've started a new era, a new beginning.
P.S. I wonder when he will ever respond to my txts!? 
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