When my mom picked my up from school today, she started yelling at me because I don't practice piano everyday. I was angry at her because she wanted me to be perfect, and I can't be perfect. Then she went there, she went on my last nerve. "YOU CAN'T SING!!!" The shock from hearing her say that paralyzed me... I couldn't sing? I loved singing, it was the only way I felt better when I'm sad or makes my happy day happier. So when she said I couldn't sing, I couldn't take it. I cried silently, with the tears rolling down my cheeks... I was so shy when I was little... I could never sing in front of people. One day my chorus teacher picked me to do a solo for a christmas song for fun... I sang silent night, and when I was done my class jumped up clapped so hard it hurt my ears, and screamed I was amazing... That made me sooo happy!!! I got more confidence, and I can actually sing in front of people now. But you know what always took away a huge amount of my confidence? My mom. She didn't support me, she didn't like me, she didn't care if I cried because she said that. I could feel my confidence drain away as she screamed, "YOU CAN'T SING!" I cried and cried and cried. I know it sounds silly, but when you're this passionate, it's like you've been told, "YOU'RE WORTHLESS" My mom went on nonstop about how I am lazy and stupid and never good enough. So the only way to ignore her was to write a song on my ipad.. I wrote my feelings down into lyrics, and I cried more because of the lyrics I wrote. I even sent it to my best friend, who I THOUGHT was going to be like "OH NO WHATS THE MATTER" But no. She didn't reply. Maybe she didn't give a crap. Maybe she didn't care like the rest of the world. Well here's the song you've all been waiting for.
Take Me Away
A.K.A. Just Let Me Die
Everyday I'm getting pelted down with words
I don't know what to do
No one loves me in this world
Why does no one care what I like or what I do?
No one even bothers to say "I love you"
"You're so stupid You can't sing!"
Do they even know the amount of gsaddness that brings?
They think they're suffering, but look at me
There's tears in my eyes ... I can't even see
I'll do them a favor and fly away
This is how I feel everyday
I'm the one that's dying here, alone and afraid
Nothing to cure all the damage that's made
And no one would care if I would go away
Forever a gone, I don't want to stay
Take me to the clouds and make it my home
The sun as its light and beds made with foam
It's so much better than this cursed life
When all i get everyday is terrible strife
I want to go cry and scream everyday
So please someone, just take me away
I'm trapped in a box of darkness, no light to come
Why does it has to be me, why am I the one?
It's not fair how I deal with this big mess
Maybe they hate me and think I'm a pest
Should I do them a favor and get taken away
This is how I feel everyday...
I'm the one that's dying here, alone and afraid
Nothing to cure all the damage that's made
And no one would care if I go away
Forever a gone, I don't want to stay
Take me to the clouds and make it my home
The sun as its light and beds made with foam
It's so much better than this cursed life
When all i get everyday is terrible strife
I want to go cry and scream everyday
So please someone, just take me away
I'm crying why does no one care?
Would they cry if I ran out of air?
Or if I get buried under the ground
Would they scream or make any kind of sound?
Maybe they'd laugh and smile oh so wide
Would I feel better if I'm on the other side?
I'm telling you now, I'm going away
This is how I feel everyday
I'm the one that's dying here, alone and afraid
Nothing to cure all the damage that's made
And no one would care if I go away
Forever a gone, I don't want to stay
Take me to the clouds and make it my home
The sun as its light and beds made with foam
It's so much better than this cursed life
When all i get everyday is terrible strife
I want to go cry and scream everyday
So please someone, just take me away
Take me away, just take me away. Just take my poor soul away....
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