I want to see my mom, and I can't because I have a job that requires me to go to work every single fucking day of my existence. My car is a piece of shit, and even with this job, there would be no point in trying to fix it. It is so worn down, that fixing it would require basically buying the car again. I'm fucking tired of everyone seeming happy, and being the person to listen when people talk. I'm tired of being interupted and treated like a child. I'm tired of remembering how happy I was when I was with him, and how I can't seem to get that back no matter what I do. HE WON'T GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!!! I can't fucking stand this shit. All I ever think about is how happy we both were, and how hurt we both were, and how I can't fix it. I hate my fucking home life. I can't stand my redneck fucking hick ass father. Nor can I stand my step mother's bitchy-ness.
I hate that I have to go to work tomorrow at six in the morning. I hate that I can't go see my mom. I hate that I can't seem to find a silver lining in anything.
I hate being jaded.
|
Loading...