Sonic Called/Rally

03/16/2009

Sonic called on Saturday, to talk to me and set up an interview, I obviously wasn't there to actually talk to her, because I was out of town with my church. My step mom called me to tell me that she had told them I was away with a church event, and that I would be back on Monday and to call around five....ish. I think thats what she said.
Anywho, my church retreat was amazing! The theme for this one was I. Literally just the letter I. It had to deal with finding out who you really are, and who you say you are. It was really wonderful, I'm not entirely too sure how much I got out of it, but with spiritual things, I notice the things later on. Anyways, while I was there we had a zone meeting. A zone is a certain area of two or three cities that are in close proximity(sp?) to each other, and when we have zone meetings, we have zone leaders. This year the two zone leaders of my zone are graduating, and will not be able to stay in the youth department of the church, so during the meeting, they chose people who wanted to do it, and then had the rest of the people in the zone vote on who they wanted to be zone leaders. It was between me and my good friend Wilson, and well I won, but I really want to work with Wilson, we both agreed it would be crazy awesome if we could both do it, so I'm going to talk to the head honcho of it all, and see what she thinks about it. Umm. Yeah.
Every spring retreat, we have what we call graduation. At these graduations, all the high school graduates will be leaving Y.O.U (youth of unity) and we have this big ceremony where the Regional Officers (the people who create how rally is going to go and what all is going to happen) will make a speech and present it to the rest of the y.o.u.ers. One of the Regis (regional officers) came out of the closet. It was so good, and like inspiring to me. A gay man who is out of the closet, but I was still impacted by it. He did it in just the right way, with the right amount of emphasis on how its affected him, and everything, and how Y.O.U has helped him. It was just so wonderful, and I couldn't express to him how proud of him I was.
Its funny, because I have a crush on him, and I want so badly to just get to know him, and just talk to him, but I don't know how he feels about me at all, because whenever I talk to him, he seems distant, like he doesn't want to talk to me. I don't think thats what it is, but like... I just don't know.
I'm going to start living my life the... "right" way. The way I want to, with some restrictions as to how it will affect me spiritually. I love my life the way it is, but I've got a long way to go before I can honestly say that I'm ok with who I am.
I mean I am only in High school, I've got a lot of maturing to do anyway.

Oh, I'm also going to run for Regi, for this next year. I have this great feeling, that I will be elected Regi, but I don't know what I would do if I was elected Regi. Like I've no idea. But that will come with due time.

I love you all.

Now lets fuck. Lol.
XD