Tuesday I had a panic attack in class, and well that wasn't fun, especially when the teacher was so preoccupied by teaching people how to sing, he didn't seem to even care. Fuck Jaime. And then yesterday was just BAAADD!!! All day, I was told something was going to happen, and it didn't, and then I was left to clean up a table all by myself, and only when I cursed loudly, did someone even bother to help me. Then after school, I just kept getting things thrown out of left field, that really upset me. Because I'm in vocal club on Wednesdays, and because of that, I am singing with our school's production of Les Miserables...... DX Its going to be horrible.
Anywho, since we don't have enough people for some empty singing parts, Jaime (hi-me) said they would hold auditions for those parts, so I asked him when were those supposed to happen, and you know what he told me? He told me he would get back to me with that. Then what happened, he gave the part I wanted to this kid who wasn't even in the damn performance, and who can't sing. THEN he gives two more people solos who can't sing.
WHERE THE FUCK DO I COME IN?!?!?!?!? WHERE? I obviously wanted a part, because I asked when the fucking auditions were supposed to be. And do I get a fucking solo? NOPE. No I don't.
And then after school, I sent a text message to my friend Sarah asking her if she could meet me somewhere, and she said no, because she's with Jessica playing pool, and they're about to go get Keegan. Ok, so Keegan is more important than me? (in more or less words I said that) She replied with NOoooo, its just that neither of us has enough gas to come see me, and then go get Keegan.
Did she even bother to ask me if something was wrong? NOPE. No she didn't.
So I sent a text message to the only other person that I would want to see who lives remotely close to me, Rosie. She told me she was with Matt, Sarah, and Jessica. As soon as I asked her to come meet me, she asked me if something was wrong. Because I DON'T ask people to meet me somewhere random and sort of secluded unless something is wrong.
So Matt and Rosie show up, because of course Matt would be with her. I hang out with them, and I have fun, and I get all my anger out, I'm fine.
Sarah and Rosie are texting about how Sarah left shit in Rosie's car, and how Rosie should drop it off at Sarah's house. And well I was pissed at Sarah, so I told Rosie to make Sarah meet her somewhere, and Sarah she didn't have any gas. But then Sarah told Rosie to leave it on her doorstep because she's going somewhere. I know Sarah, and she wouldn't tell someone to leave it on the doorstep, because her car is ALWAYS unlocked.
So Sarah told me she couldn't come see me because of Keegan, and then she lied to Rosie and Matt about not having any gas to take Keegan home.
I'm pissed at Sarah. AGAIN.
This shit needs to stop. I hate gaining new friends while losing old ones, especially if I'm losing and re-gaining old ones over and over again.
I wish I could move to Tennessee and start over sometimes.
I really do.
But now that I'm more involved in my church, I wouldn't be able to do that.
*sigh*
Oh Well. I'll deal with it. |
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