XD >.< -_-

03/05/2009

I don't know weather to be excited for today, or like... dreading it. There are so many things going on today, and I'm not sure what to do about them.
At 2:00 pm, I get to leave class early, to go to play practice, and stay there until six. But I don't think we're actually staying until six, so I'm a little confused about that. See there is an Art Show tonight, and there are like two or three students that have pieces in the art show, but they're also in the play....So I'm not too sure whats going on today. I really wanna go to the art show, but I don't know how I would get home if I did go.
Anyways, Andrew Greenwood. Yes I know. All I ever do is talk about him. I don't care. Its weird for me to have a crush on a guy that likes me back, in March. My like natural time to have boyfriends/anything close to a boyfriend is in the Fall/Winter(August to December), randomly in like February, but never in March. Its just different. I don't know where this is going to go. We barely ever talk, besides when we go for a smoke, or when we're in play practice, and when play practices are done, when we will talk then? Will we still hang out? I don't know. This is just such a strange time for me.
I might be getting a job soon. Actually I'm pretty sure I will have a job soon. Sonic hires skaters, and I can skate, and apparently if I'd told this girl named Tyamiami (tie-am-ee) that I could skate a long time ago, she would've gotten me a job a LONG time ago. Anywho, I'm getting a job soon. In March, right around where I have things that I need to do, like go on Church retreats, figure out how to stay focused in school and shit, and since its March, that means Summer is coming up pretty soon, and in the summer, I go spend two months with my mom. My life's getting harder and harder to keep on track. Its.... so frustrating. To think that my life was easy. Hahaha.
When did I EVER actually think my life was easy?? I've no idea. How about before I figured out I was gay, before I knew my entire family was in financial trouble....................before High School.
Awesome. Everyone says they wish they could be a kid again, I just wish I could be in Middle School again.

Wow. I wasn't expecting this to turn into a pity party for myself.....
Oops...
Well I guess I'm gonna go.. I've got..... I'm not even going to lie, I want to drink some coffee. Lol.