No, seriously.
On Tuesday, my husband and I are moving to a bigger city, 4 hours away, due to my schooling. It's not a choice I made to go there, but due to the scholarship I got, I couldn't afford to NOT go. Ever since he's realized that we have to move, he's been an ass. Jumping my throat for every little thing. Throwing fits about how his stuff better not get broken. Everything. Anything.
It's been a constant battle these past few weeks. Especially since we finalized on an apartment. It's as if he's just trying to talk me out of it. The more he goes on about it, the more he makes me feel like shit. And I don't guess he realizes that. Or if he does, he doesn't care? I don't know, it's just frustrating, and it's really starting to get old.
I've had many people tell me that I need to be lenient with him. He's lived here all his life, (as have I though), and isn't ready to move. I need to be accepting of this, and his unwillingness to move. I need to deal with it, accept it, suck it up, and move on. But it's really hard. And it's really getting old. There's only so much bitching about the same thing you can take, y'know? I'm so tired of him making me feel like shit about this. Everyone's siding with him on his not wanting to move. It's getting OLD.
I'm ready to move, ready to start a new life with him. He isn't though, or at least it doesn't seem it. Unfortunately, we live with my grandmother, and have since we got married. This is our ticket out. This is our way to get our freedom as individuals and as a couple. But, I guess he doesn't see that. Where we live, the town is lucky to have 1,200 people. The school district has 400 kids, if lucky. Where we're going? The school has about 2,000 + students and the town has probably 40,000. It's a new experience, a new life. But no one seems to want it for us, but me.
*sighs* This is really getting old. I love him, really I do. But it's about the point that I just want to tell him to shut up about it and grow a set. We all have to do things we don't want to, this is just one of the many on his list.
It doesn't help that when we talk about it, he gets pissed and walks out ending the conversation(s) with, "I'm done with you."
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