at the end of the world.

I just finished watching The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and it made me cry so much. It's an amazing movie and the acting was fantastic...even the story is beautiful. I really liked the movie.

I am extremely emotional right now not only because of the movie but tonight after my dad got home, my mom told my dad if he could apologize to me for not talking to me and all this other crap that is happening and he basically said he didn't care if we were talking or not. That hurt my feelings more than I want to admit to myself. This is my father and it's like he doesn't even give a shit. I don't want to talk to him. He has done enough damage and I am not putting up with it anymore.

I have put up with a lot from him. Having to be around the girl he is cheating my mom with, keeping all his secrets, all the excuses as to why he couldn't be a good dad to us....everything. I have to be a sister and a dad of sorts to my brother because he's not one. What kind of father leaves his son alone in the movie theater while he goes to talk on the phone? What kind of father pushes his son away when all my brother wants to do is spend time with him and play around? I can't believe that my dad would say that he doesn't even care. It's like I never existed for him.

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