I wish I was stronger.

Life is...crazy. I've been super exhausted lately and just wearing myself out. I haven't cried in weeks mostly because I've been keeping myself busy.

One of the dogs that I've been taking care of for a while now is in heart failure - the vet gave her 2 weeks to a month to live, and even then she has a very high chance of dying in her sleep. She was okay a few weeks ago! She was perfectly fine....and then everything just went downhill and to fucking shit. The vet has given her more pills to take but it's just prolonging something that's going to happen soon anyway. To top it all off, my cat is sick again...he's super lethargic, barely eating anything, and yesterday I found him drooling. His ears are getting worse and he's so skinny now, it's almost like holding a stick. I'm taking him to the vet tomorrow but I'm afraid I'm also prolonging something that's going to happen soon too and I know he's suffering. I can see it in his eyes and when he stands up but can barely move.

I think today sucks. I think getting old ridiculously sucks, and I think everything is happening too fast...too soon. First Nena, now Gracie (the dog in heart failure) and my cat as well.

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