just a little late

I am again, not talking to my father. I am so sick and tired of his shit. He uses all these lame excuses not to help out. I'm sorry but if he's not working right now, he should try to help out around the house because mom and I have enough shit to do as it is. Instead, he either spends it sleeping or watching fucking movies. He has been going out to look for a job but whenever he comes home and there's no one here yet, he doesn't fucking do anything to help out. It's not that fucking hard to walk Nena for 15-20 minutes! It's not that hard to spend some time with her, wash the dishes my brother leaves in the morning, and just minor things like that. I am SO angry at him for everything he is doing and everything he is NOT doing. I just want to punch him in the face.

And I know my mom is fantastic but she's really stupid for putting up with his shit. I get that she loves him blah blah blah, but come on! He fucking cheated on you and he is still cheating on you! He doesn't help you out at all, and apparently, he could give two shits about us and yet you still put up with it? WHY, WHY, WHY?!?!!?!?! I don't fucking understand this! I don't understand her. They constantly fight, he's a fucking idiotic moron, and she just puts up with it. I just fucking want to sell this place and move with just my mom and brother. It wouldn't be any different except I wouldn't have to put up with my dad's stupid bullshit excuses anymore...none of us would have to put up with it.

Yeah, you're fucking bipolar...GUESS YOU SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN HELP WHEN YOU HAD THE CHANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So many chances and he just fucking threw them away. So you cannot fucking use that excuse anymore. He just doesn't fucking CARE!

It has been more than a year since I have felt this but I want to cut so badly. It is stupid but I am pissed at both of my parents and hurt.

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