This may be the... end of it all?
Would it be wrong to ask for a cup of coffee, or lunch after I get done with my surgery? Lol.
Or will they add on time to the 15 hours of no liquids and no food that I have right now?
I swear they are trying to kill me. Either me or the baby (and I'm just kidding. Kind of... I've never had to fast this long before.)
Either way, this may be the day of my c-section.
I feel like I'm prepared. At least more prepared then if they tried to take him on Thursday while I was at my appointment.I think they wanted too, but couldn't because I had breakfast. They wouldn't have been able to do the anesethia.
I hope it happens today.
I don't want to have to wait 3 days, and go back in and maybe have to give him up to be told to go home for another 3 days and come back for the same routine.
I think that my brain wouldn't be able to take the roller coaster of emotions, as much as just knowing that a certain day is going to be the day.
I'm slightly nervous. Actually, I'm very nervous.
I guess (as stupid as it may sound), I'm more nervous about the surgery and hospital night stays then I am about giving him up for adoption right now.
I think it's because the surgery comes first; and I might become more anxious when the time comes to go home and I don't have anything to carry out.
Thanks for visiting.