UT-OH

Feeling dull and at a loss. From experience, this is NOT a good place to be. I'm just not *feeling* anything. Empty.

I've been trying to work on my NaNovel, but I just don't feel like writing - while at the same time, I feel that I have a lot to say, and want to write but don't know where to start.

I'm not hungry - but at the same time, I am starving.

I want to go lay down in my comfy bed - and I am tired - but I am also restless.

Fuck me - I KNOW this feeling. And just because it is familiar, that doesn't mean that it is welcome.

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Wonderful. Glorious and peachy-keen teenagers.

My youngest just came home from school. He got off of the bus and came into the house in a very ugly mood.

Oh yes, report cards came out today, and he knows that I am not impressed with the fact that he is failing every class that he is in.

I don't know what to do about this. I took away all of his extracurricular activities, so that he has NO reason for not concentrating on his schoolwork. Yes, it pissed him off, but, I as the parent need to do something, right?

Ho-hum. I think that I will leave this subject alone for now and wait until Kev gets home. I will discuss it with him, and he will have a good idea of how to deal with the situation. Kev always has a more calm and level-headed way of looking at things.

Especially when I am in the mood that I am in at the moment.

What I should do is go into my bedroom and limit contact with all of the members of my family right now. But, I don't want to be alone.

Fuck me times two.

Gonna end this for now, I think that I am going to try and go back to working on my novel. I just got my official version of the Scrivener software today, so I will go play with that for awhile, see if I can learn anything more about the program.