10 things I wish I could say to 10 different people in my life (don't use names):
1. All I ever wanted was your love. It seemed that nothing I did was ever good enough for you.
2. How could you let your husband do what he did to me? Why did you not protect me?
3. Thank you for being with me through everything (EVERYTHING). I love you and wouldn't know how to live without you.
4. Why can't you like me a little? I gave birth birth to your grandchildren and I am in your son's life for better or worse, whether you like it or not.
5. I wish you hadn't moved away. You were my bestie and I will never have a relationship with anyone else like I had with you. You were the "come and get me at 3 o'clock in the morning with no questions asked" kind of friend.
6. I wish I could meet you. You have been a very supportive friend to me, even though our relationship has been over the internet. I have told you things that I have never told anyone else.
7. I wish that you could work things out with your children's mother. I know that you are a good father, but the choices that you have made in life have affected the chance that you will get those children from their mother.
8. I hate you. I wish that you would never come to my house again. I hate when you leave cigarette butts in my yard.
9. I wish that I hadn't missed you when you died. You did me wrong for so many years. What you did has affected my life for years.
10. I dislike you more every time that I see you. But I have to rely on you for my medications and my care. I feel indebted to you, even though I dread coming to see you.
9 things about myself:
1. I have 5 tattoos.
2. I have been married to my high-school sweetheart for 17 years.
3. I collect Barbies.
4. I have 2 sons; teenagers.
5. I have Bipolar.
6. I ♥ Dunkin Donuts Hazelnut coffee.
7. I have 3 dogs and 2 cats (and numerous chickens).
8. I have had 32 poems published.
9. I am an avid reader.
8 ways to win my heart:
1. buy me a cup of coffee from Dunkin Donuts.
2. take me out for a meal.
3. buy me my own miniature christmas tree.
4. hold me when I cry.
5. just be a puppy or a kitten.
6. take me to Sand Beach.
7. tell me that you love me.
8. stick up for me.
7 things that cross my mind a lot:
1. I'm hungry.
2. Money.
3. My sons' future.
4. Did I take my meds?
5. Did I lock the door?
6. What's on the television tonight?
7. Did I read that book already?
6 things I do before I fall asleep:
1. Go pee.
2. Check Bloop, OD, and Facebook.
3. Take my night meds.
4. Kiss my husband goodnight.
5. Ask the kids if they locked the door after taking the dogs out for the night.
6. Read or play Chuzzle on my iPod.
5 people who mean a lot:
1. My husband.
2. My son A.
3. My son C.
4. My mother-in-law.
5. Monique.
4 things you are wearing right now:
1. underwear
2. pink cupcake pajamas
3. christmas diamond
4. hair scrunchie
3 songs you listen to often:
1. "Pussy Control" by Prince
2. anything by Eminem
3. "Crazy" by Narles Barclay
2 things you want to do before you die:
1. See my kids off and on their own.
2. Write a novel and have it published.
1 confession:
1. I want to get a boob lift. |