Came crashing down

11/18/2010

Those of you who follow both my bloopdiary and my opendiary... which is hopefully none of you because they're basically clones of each other, lol Anyway... I wrote a bunch of entries in OD that I was unable to post here because I was writing them on my phone which lacks an easy way to copy and paste. So here's what you missed out on (they are all short entries). I completely lost the plot for a day so I figured it was worth documenting.


11/16/2010 16 November 2010

I'm going through withdrawal from prescription drugs. Currently I'm seeing double. I don't quite want to kill myself yet but I'm sure that's commikng up soon. Jesus keep me from sopewing.



fjdkkdf *edit 16 November 2010

now i'm starrting shit with my bf for no reason other than the fact im fucking irritated and he wont tell me whatrs bothering HIM.
I hate myself.

*edit: now that he's told me wwhat's bothering him, i wish i never asked.



aasdfghjhj 16 November 2010

wow i actually do literally lose the plot when i dont take my medication for two days. And yet with the loss of my sanity seemingly easily restored with three pink pills every morning i dont want to get up and find them, i'd rather lay in bed screaming for my baby. At least i cant get up to drive a knife through my wrist. Never not take yor pills, kids. I want to deie. Cant even FUCKING TYPE.



11/17/2010 17 November 2010

thank the lord! Yeah, aaron gets drugs back and turns religious. I'm goling to hell for that aren't i. Aaaanyway... Two hours ago i finally fucking got my script and took my delusional self to the chemist to get it filled. I also bought some chips from chicken treat because as i said i was delusional and craved salt and fat. I feel relieved. The last... I don't know how many days... Three? Four? ...One? Possibly? Anyway. Fuck. I'm glad it's over soon. As soon as my pills kick in. And I'm feeling it baby. *cracks knuckles* that's right baby. Baby baby. Are you feeling the fake enthusiam? I know I am.