More than good sex

06/21/2011

Luke came over last night Just to pick up some stuff for another week at his dad's, but apparently my new unshaved, hobo stylin' was so damn irresistible that he had to hit that.

So he dropped on by last night and I was just doing some research re new prostitution laws (reading the proposed bill, which was a headache). So I was like ah, shit! I look like crap but... omg. I didn't realise how much I missed him til he was here... I didn't want him to go. I didn't say anything about that, just stood around while he collected some clothes and his pillow, but watching him... I don't know, felt calm, like my heart rate slowed down a little. Must have been a bit stressed trying to make sense of that document. He's good at anchoring me in that way. Anyway as I was waiting for him to finish it occured to me how much easier it is being with Luke than with Young (they are beyond comparison but bare with me). I don't have to play games like hard to get or extensively plan my next move. I'm able to make mistakes with him. I probably take him for granted but it's better than thinking every day is the day we break up. That being said, of course, the time he's spending with his dad is specifically so he CAN think about breaking up, fancy that lol. Its not that I only just realised that I don't want to lose him, but... it just struck me with force the fact that Luke is... like... amazing... The most supportive, tolerant, understanding person... Now I know I have to show him how much I love him and want to be together with him. We drifted apart, we stopped sharing with each other our interests and such... Luke would be doing one thing and I wouldn't mind but I also wouldn't care, and vice versa. So basically... I can see why he might be feeling a bit bored with "us"... I want to get back on track with him. I hope I can.

I didn't find out anything about what he'd been doing or thinking while at his dad's house. All that was confirmed was that he'd be there for another week. But he was taken by my lips (he has a fetish for my mouth I swear, since day one lol). One thing he does a lot is just run his finger over my lips. Actually now that i think of it, he touches everything he looks at... Aw... Anyway, he did that last night. Im remembering it like slow motion. He kissed me once and that was it... Hands and mouths all over each other... Bodies on fire... He ended up staying the night but when he got up for work before dawn, I heard him still putting the stuff he'd packed the night before in his car. I pretended not to notice, stayed in bed and only sat up to kiss him goodbye.

I know he's impulsive like I am, so I'm not reading anything into last night. I don't think it has changed the grand scheme of things. Hopefully reignited some passion/lust in him (for me, he has a lot of that without me too lol) but yeah I ... Umm... Yeah. Don't know which way he's swinging. Swing my way, Luke!!! I think I should see him around Thurs arvo and have a normal kinda date... And then that night seduce the fuck out of him. That way I hopefully tick the "more than just good sex" box. Wish me luck.