Right now, as in right this second... things are kinda cool. A little bit meh in general, though. Luke is going to stay at his dad's house for a bit longer, but not because he wants to break up with me, but because he thinks his dad needs the company. His mum's stuff is still all around the house and he's been helping his dad finally pack it away... not so it was like she was never there, but like, for example, the magazines she was reading the day she died were still on the table next to her favourite chair and stuff. The kind of stuff you never want to get rid of, but how can you be happy if there are these constant reminders of someone you've lost? So he's just been slowly but steadily helping him with practical stuff like that... Things that it took him two weeks for some reason to start doing. I can understand it. And like I said before, I enjoy the space and time to myself. I'm a loner when it comes down to it.
Right this second, as I said, things are cool because Luke just left and we had a great time together. He is funny. I made a point of telling him on Wednesday how much he means to me and that I love him and don't want to lose him. I think that helped him decide to not break up with me. Because we're not seeing each other every day though, when he came over tonight it was like HELLO oh HI HOW ARE YOU HOW WAS YOUR WEEK TELL ME EVERYTHING LETS CATCH UP. And it's nice! Because we would just let the week pass and not have a clue what the other one did in that week! And we get all hyper and talk all fast at each other and end up shouting cos that's what I do when I get excited and I think when one person is shouting it's impossible to not shout back... kind of like when you whisper and the other person starts whispering back and then theyre like wait why am i whispering? lol. And it's fun aaahhh Luke is fun. Yepyep. And we had this amazing conversation about this stupid cushion I bought. It's such a flaming big gay cushion. And he hates it but he loves it because of the way I explained to him why I love it. When it comes down to it, it's got pink flowers on it, but I made it seem cool. I rock! |
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