685 p2 snow work and relationships 2 17 2015

02/17/2015

685 p2 snow work and relationships 2 17 2015

How I change?

Do I want to change?

Yes, yes I do.

Ok, so now that you know you do…

I have wanted to change for a long while and not just months, but for more than 10 years.

Ok, what do you want to change?

There are 2 things in my life I’ve been trying to change and I continue to put 100 % effit into … about 33% of the time because, well, it’s exhausting. It wears on me mentally, emotionally and physically.

Ok, what are those two things?

I want a fulltime job, or something more than what I got and I want it to be a career job and the other thing is I want a girlfriend. A woman who will love me for me and appreciate all the little things I do and would do for her.

Ok, so you said you have tried to do things to change these things. What have you tried?

Well, in both situations, I have constantly…well, not constantly, but every once in a while I’ll put 110 percentage into looking for jobs and looking for a date.

How do you do these things?

I go on to various sites, look at ads, write to a few of them, sometimes I hear back, most of the time I hear nothing. But I try and all I come up with is failure. I wish I knew different avenues.

What avenues have you tried?

Well, I have asked people but most of the time I look on line. I go ot indeed, monster and careerbuilder for jobs and match, jdate and okcupid mostly, for dates. I recognize they are both hit or miss, it’s chance meeting chance, it’s like playing a card game…you know? You may need an ace and all the ace’s are already on the table or maybe they are still in the deck or maybe some are on the table and some are still in the deck. Who knows?

I just wish someone had answers for me or better yet, a solid solution. Lord knows I got nothing.

So I thought of a new career. I did some research on and will do more but what about a grant writer? I enjoy researching, writing and being able to get people free money is defanately rewarding and would make me feel productive. I just would like to talk to someone in the profession, see what if any barrios that may come up.
What do you think about me being a grant writer?

I know that I am emotionally attached to Karen and with good reasons but there are reasons I shouldn’t be and I know I shouldn’t be but I am. However, I have tried to find dates. I go on okcupid and search and write to women. Not that I hear back from many and those who I do, are mostly thanks but no thanks.

I do have baseball to look forward to and even more so, my San Francisco trip. I so cant wait for that.

81 more days till SF!
11 more days till my twin's brithday
2 weeks from today is the start of spring training games
48 more days till opening day
55 more days till opening day at Fenway Park.

Let it snow let it snow let it snow…SOMEWHERE ELSE!

With today’s 1-3 inches of snow we’re getting, we have reached the second most snowiest winter for Massachusetts EVER. We are up to 97 inches of snow. 92 of that are within a 22 day spand and we have no where to put the snow and we are suppose to have another foot of snow this coming weekend which will break the record of 107 for the most snow ever in MA for an entire winter and this would be within a 30 day spand. UGGG!