188. It’s three ten
7-12-2010
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Wild eyes of Crazy Mary
Scared the shit out of me
Bloodshot eyes
All she knew was how to lie
Mary talked soft and slow
About stuff I didn’t even know
I don’t think she even knew
Orange bugs in her head and on the walls that she drew
She says she wants to be a better woman
She wants to be independent, she says she knows she can
I asked her for a plan
She just spoke of the orange bugs again
She has a wish list
She scratches her wrist
She leans forward and asks
Can you take off your mask?
I ask her if she has taken her meds
She shook her head
I asked her why not?
It makes me feel crazy, like, a lot
Day 1 —The friend you have known for the longest. John, 22 years
Day 2 — Your crush / significant other. Anyone who wants me.
Day 3 — Your parents. Laraine and Allan
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative) Robert is the oldest. I have a twin Justin and my sister Amanda.
Day 5 — Your dreams. To be married have a job and be happy.
Day 6 — A stranger. A lot of people are, even if I have known them. You ever said "I remember that face but cant place them"? What if you couldnt see them? I am sure there has been plenty of people who I have known, especially from my HS, who I have walked past but they dont come up to me so I'll never know.
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/ Ex-girlfriend Nikki
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend, Jenna
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet: Nolan Ryan
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to: a lot of my internet friends.
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to. hmm either my mother's father or Babe Ruth.
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain. Cousin David, people who discriminate against me, and the Yankees
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you. hmm
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from. Lisa
Day 15 — The person you miss the most. Lisa
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country. Any of my bloop friend. you all should come visit me!
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood. Ryan McClellen
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be. No one spacificly, but parts of a lot of people.
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad. my mom
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest. Nikki
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression. clients
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to. NA
Day 23 — The last person you kissed. mmm I guess that would be Nikki, 16 months ago.
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory. Lisa: jr prom, Nolan ryan: hall of fame, myself? graduating college, grad school, advance grad school. Justin-Sidney-Jared taking me to different ballparks Chrystal: mmm only in my dreams
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times: Kayci *hug*
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to: Jenna
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day: Jennavive. I hope she turned her life around.
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life: my parents, my twin, all my profesors and people who have guided me along the way. All my friends and coworkers and classmates.
Day 29 — The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to. She's on here, so wont say.
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror. "I'm looking at the, man in the mirror"
I see a young man who is frustrated with life in so many ways. He is lonily and bored a lot but knows that he has a great family and some pretty cool friends around him who will be there if need be.
This guy is educated and caring, thoughtful and understanding, a great listener and has a big heart.
He is also afrade of what the future may bring, or, rather, what it may not bring.
Who knows, maybe his Jewish, sports disney princess will walk into his life and he'll get a job at a Boston Hospital and life will be wicked awesome.
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lol nah it wasn't a survey lol It was when i have nothing else to write about I'd write a letter... it supposed to be for 3 days but i'm not going to do that. I stole the idea from a OD friend.
