dear Karen

09/18/2013

Dear Karen

I am reaching out to you with the hope to have my friend back. I am unsure what happened over the last few weeks and I hope you will help me to understand? I feel like I lost a best friend. I lost you.

We have known each other for 10 years. Over this time we saw each other through some very difficult times and shared some great times. We were always there for each other, supporting each other even in the darkest of times. Over this 10 years, we have grown to trust each other, be truthful with each other and be honest with each other, no matter what. We have been there for each other. I feel that we have had this amazing connection which I do not have with anyone else. I feel comfortable saying anything to you. It is through your words, your ability to describe things through your artistic eyes which brings this world of darkness, not only color but you put a 3 dimensional description to it so I can see.

I never thought I would ever get to meet you in person. However, last year you invited me to come and meet you. I had no idea what to expect. It was an amazing weekend which I will never ever forget.
I am unsure if meeting me in person confused your feelings? I don’t know if your kiss was just out of reaction or was there more behind it? I am sorry to say that I took it as being more behind it. Just like when you took my hands and gently squeezed them, or when you took my hands and placed them on your body, to let me “see” you. That was special to me. Taking you to a comedy show, going shopping and you making me soup, walking around the zoo after having breakfast, your descriptions of each of those animals…again, I could visualize them through your words and your actions of taking my hands to show me how big things were. Again, no one has ever done this for me and to you, it came natural. Yesterday I came home from shopping and put my change into the baseball you made for me. Thank you for taking the time to make something so unique. It made me feel special that you would make that for me. It really means a lot to me. That entire weekend meant so much to me.

I thought everything was going so well till the week before I was suppose to come visit you again. My attempts to contact you left me confused and hurt. Can you help me understand what happened? If you want me to back away for a bit and give you time and space… If you want to go back to being friends and just chatting every once in a great while, that is ok too. I would like our amazing friendship back and hope you do too.

Jonathan