good news... I received the replacement gift card from Toys R us.
Good news: they rebuilt the back wall of my room, giving me a new back door that will be a lot less drafty and put in instillation in the back wall too. I should be moved back into my own room with my own bed by the weekend.
Bad news: I spent a few hours a day on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, looking for jobs.
There are defanately plenty of jobs out there, even in my field but nothing I am qualified for or able to do.
Bad news...I still think of her about 5-7 times a day and wonder what happened? What did I do wrong? what could I have done differently? and I still fantasize about her. I wonder a lot more things but I rather not list all my thoughts...too many to write
I’m done
11-21-2013
I’m laying here drained
Of all my tears and energy
I feel so weak
Will anyone ever love me?
The rain pounds on the window
My head is pounding too
I don’t feel my heart beating
I’m just through
Looking at the man in the mirror
I never seen him before
He looks weary, worn, batted and broken
A soldier who lost the war
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