*sigh* I am having a bla day again. It sucks.
I am extremely happy for all of you who in the last few years and for two of you, in the last couple of month, who found your best friend, your soulmate, your partner in crime and your lover in bed.
I know I should not feel jealous, feel pitty for myself but I do.
I keep searching on this dating site, okcupid.com and I have found plenty of ladies who live near me who I'd be interesting in. However, when I write to them, I am lucky if I get a response 1 of 30 times. hmmm Maybe I should have one of you look at my profile and cratique it? Anyone want to help me?
I'm not sure what, but I got to do something with my life.
I'm not happy. feeling lonely and at work, as much as my boss gives me praise, they mean nothing because I co-run groups that dont need to be co- ran. Besides, I know my clients dont respect me. When ever I call them for group, they dont come and when any of my coworkers, male or female, young or a veteran, they get at least a few people. When I do groups myself and I do have a couple of people, they leave when they feel like it. Most of the time I dont even realize it.
I'm only hanging on there because it gives me some where to go twice a week instead of doing what I am doing today. NOTHING. Not like I make any money. I work 4 hrs a week at about 11 dollars an hour. I have 2 master degrees, 7 years of experience and I make 11 dollars an hour, isnt that great?
I think the drier is buzzing. going to go fold some laundry.
30 day song challenge
( was bored, 30 days in 1)
day 01 - your favorite song: GNR Patience. Always was and probably always will be. reminds me of my first love.
day 02 - your least favorite song: fatboy slim: the rockafeller skank day. So f-ing annoying!
03 - a song that makes you happy: bryan adams, Summer of 69
day 04 - a song that makes you sad: REM everybody hurts
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone: Nirvana: smells like team spirit. My twin was obsessed with nirvana and MR. Cobain
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere: Kenny Rogers, The greatest. ... a little league ball park. so inocent, so pure. so simple. Just like how baseball should be.
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event:
Bryan adams, heaven Justin & Lindsay's wedding
Sarah McLachlan, I will remember you: my sr prom
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to:
Blessid union of souls, Lucky to be here
day 09 - a song that you can dance to: DKM, TESSIE!
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep: Billy Joel, Lullabye. such a sweet and relaxing song.
day 11 - a song from your favorite band: Bon Jovi: runaway (took me a long while to figure out which song lol)
day 12 - a song from a band you hate: EMENEM Bonny and clide 97 (this was the song that did it too)
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure: Blondie: I touch myself (that is what they mean by guilty pleasure, right? lol)
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love:
Kenny Rodgers: she rides wild horses
Metallica: Whereever I may roam (this song, this is how I feel more days than not and I loved this song from the moment I heard it. there was one line that grabbed and spoke to me at a young age. "I adapt to the unknown" so true for me and my life.
day 15 - a song that describes you: Aerosmith, blindman (lol I tell ppl he wrote that song for me after meeting me)
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate: (hate is a strong word) killing in the name of
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio:
Alanis Morissette: Ironic (xm 90's on 9)
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio: Bon Jovi Never say goodbye. I never heard this song till I heard it live last year at the new Meadlowlands stadium. I was shocked when my cousin told me it was on the slippery when wet albumb from 1986. I love this song.
day 19 - a song from your favorite album: Bon Jovi, Born to be my baby (and that's my fav song on that albumb)
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you're angry: Limp Bisket: faith! (especially in college. lmao you should see me screaming on the top of my voice, dancing-jumping around and just getting all the anger out of me... it's pretty funny)
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you're happy: REM, Night swimming (It's my fav REM song. it's so peaceful. so relaxing)
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you're sad:
Bon Jovi: My Guitar lies bleeding in my arms (The first song I put on. I run to this song. "stairing out the window, such a long way down, I'd like to jump, but I'm afrade to hit the ground"
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding:
bryan adams: I’ll always be, right there (THE MOMENT I HEARD THIS SONG, I knew it was my wedding song. if you never heard it, please, go find it and listen to it and picture me slow dancing with a pretty girl)
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral: take me out to the ballgame and a Jewish song, "adonolum" A funaral should be a time to selebrate the person's life. Or at least, that is what my religion and my family taught me.
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh: GNR: I use to love her but I had to kill her
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play: GNR sweet child O mine (the guitar beginning, goes through my head at least once a week)
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty: Everclear: father of mine (I have a great father. I have a great family. *for the most part* A lot of their songs remind me how fortunate I truely am.)
day 29 - a song from your childhood:
DJ Jazzy jeff and the fresh prince, Parents just don’t understand
Debby Gibson: out of the blue
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year: GNR Patience |