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Beyond Belief
by A RedSox Fan

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it's been a while, how have you been? day 10

06/14/2011

Thanks to fb, I reconnected with some people... but you know that story.

However, I just got an email from the blind lady who I visited in NY last year and fooled around a bit with. We parted with a kiss only to have her not respond to my emails and phone calls when I got back home. ... till tonight.

In the email, she said that she had fun but I wasnt what she expected. She admited she was "childish and wrong" about how she handled it and she knows why she acted that way, but didnt tell me why. She said that her number has not changed but she isnt ready to talk on the phone again but would like to still be friends. She ended her email by saying "I have lots to tell you, so write back soon!!!"
She has me totally confused.
What was she expecting? I'm a very honest and thoughtful and romantic guy.
She says she knows she acted imature and wrong but didnt want to tell me why.
So of course that leaves me wondering why.

And, thanks to good old bloop, a very dear bloop buddy who disapeared from me for 3 years, decided to come back. Although I felt and still feel a little anger and a little sadneess on the way she just disapeared after all that I helped her through in her real life but I am so happy for her that she found a great new life for herself. Married again and raising his children as they are her own. It's a beautiful story. This lady loves her baseball team, like I love my Red Sox. We both write poetry and although we write different types, we enjoy each other's style and creativity.
I look forward catching up with her and hopefully be great on line bloop buddies again. XOXOX


TOMORROW NIGHT!
GAME 7! NHL FINALS!
The Boston Bruins and the vancouver nuckleheads.

I'll be cheering from one of my fav restaurants... Boston Beerworks!
With two of my favorite people... my twin and his wife!
I Promased Lindsay, I would buy her a blue berry beer. She's excited about that.

(if anyone comes to Boston, you have to go there for a beer. even if you dont drink beer, they have wonderful sporting food)

GO BOSTON!

Day One: 10 different things you want to say to 10 different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.

Before I answer this question, I want to say that it was fun doing this 10 day challenge.
I did the 30 day music challenge in a single sitting which I will post the questions and my answers to sometime soon.

Day Ten: One confession.

I am thinking long and hard about this question. For people who have read me and read me for a while, probably knows 90% of my life which includes my thoughts, emotions, feelings and all that jazz that people who know me in real life, they only see 50% of me... or even less.

I could say that I am scared of my future.
I am scared that I will end up in an apartment by myself with a deadend part job still collecting SSI. Having all my education waisted and all my love to give, waisted as well. instead of having a great fulltime job with a wonderful woman who loves me for my body, mind, heart and soul.
I am scared of that. People have always told me that I will find someone and I will make that lady a happy person. People say "good things come to those who wait" I know that's not true.
Besides, you all knew that already.

So my confession?

I lost my verginity to a stripper in Canada. It was 8 years ago from this weekend.
And... yes, my mom knows. lmao!

I think 5 people knew that about me and I just added to that number.
It would be not for another 5 more years before I would have sex again but that was with my x gf.

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I knew that

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I did not know about the stripper in canada thing

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