pain of December *poem

12/17/2014

The pain of December
12-17-14
By Jonathan

I thought I was ok, I thought I was fine
I woke up trying to figure out why I’m alive
I thought I could get over you
I couldn’t be further from it being true

I feel like I’m being strangled, I can’t breathe
The pain was building up, there’s no ease
I’m gasping for breath
I can’t get any rest
That knot of pain and sadness is deep in my stomach
It’s weighing me down like a ton of bricks

My eyes are filled with dried tears
I have no one to hold, no one is here
I am living my ultimate fear
Is anyone out there?

What’s the point of getting out of bed?
I got nowhere to go, my heart is dead
There’s no one home and I don’t work today
I try and I try, I just feel frayed