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Beyond Belief
by A RedSox Fan

previous entry: so you want to hear about my twin's 33rd birthday?

next entry: After a hard day of work *short poem

so... leigh contacted me again

03/06/2011

[9:44:01 am]Leigh:hey
[9:44:07 am]Leigh:how have you been?
[9:47:10 am]Jonathan:hi, I'm... alright
[9:47:28 am]Jonathan:you get the apt situation taken care of?
[9:48:09 am]Jonathan:I... miss talking to you, but I probably shouldnt say that
[9:48:18 am]Leigh:hey
[9:48:21 am]Leigh:ya i moved to medford
[9:48:33 am]Leigho much nicer, i mean its only beenn a week
[9:48:43 am]Leigh:but i was so depressed and unhappy in peabody
[9:48:47 am]Leigh:i barely saw my friennds
[9:48:51 am]Leigh:my roommate was horrible
[9:49:18 am]Leigh:I wasntn a very good friend im sorry
[9:49:18 am]Leigh:
[9:49:27 am]Jonathan:bad roomates can make for a miserable time.
[9:49:35 am]Leigh:it was awful
[9:49:49 am]Leigh:ive been in medford for a week now, but already i feel so much better
[9:50:15 am]Leighully, ( joel) my roommate is awesome, he is wicked nice super helpful, ive never lived with a guy, but i already know it will be less drama
[9:50:49 am]Jonathan:that is awesome *smile* usually... lol guys are less drama
[9:51:57 am]Jonathan:my b day was last monday. went to foxwoods, nyc and then... saw bon jovi on tuesday.
[9:52:41 am]Leigh:happy birthday!!!!
[9:52:47 am]Leigh:how old 30 righgt?
[9:53:08 am]Jonathan:33 lol
[9:53:10 am]Leigh:ya sully ad i just chill in fronnnt of the tv durig the week after work
[9:53:19 am]Leigh:oh thats right i forgot how much older u were
[9:53:24 am]Leigh:i mean nnot that its alot... lol
[9:53:35 am]Jonathanoke
[9:53:44 am]Leigh:im sorry i wasntn a very good friend
[9:53:50 am]Jonathan:and the little people are good?
[9:54:02 am]Leigh:lol
[9:54:38 am]Leigh:i had the flu the week before i moved..... ya it was wicked bad..... i am finall yall better... well i am on anntibiotic for pink eye
[9:54:39 am]Leigh:good times
[9:54:53 am]Jonathan:I wouldnt say you werent a good friend. I was the one who didnt write back
[9:55:07 am]Leigh:tru but i didnt exactly try either...
[9:55:14 am]Leigh:but ya whats up with that? lol
[9:55:15 am]Leigh:
[9:55:22 am]Leigh:jk
[9:58:00 am]Jonathano how many guys have you found that are better than me? a zillian?
[9:59:05 am]Leigh:i went on a few dates with this other guy, but hes just a friend, i feel bad cuz he likes me , but its jsut not there
[9:59:19 am]Leigh:i do have a lunch date today... cringe
[9:59:24 am]Leigh:hes he meetinng me in medford
[9:59:35 am]Jonathan:you know... if things worked out, I was hoping to invite you to my passover sader. when I told my mom about you, she had two questions "is she jewish" "does she like kids"
[9:59:49 am]Leigh:haha
[10:00:08 am]Leigh:im so doe eyed when it comes to babies....
[10:02:07 am]Jonathan:I'm kinda walking on egg shells over here. A lot of things are going through my head...fyi
[10:02:17 am]Leigh:ok?
[10:02:22 am]Leigh:care to share
[10:02:39 am]Jonathan:lol not sure.
[10:04:02 am]Leigh:ok...
[10:06:01 am]Jonathan:like... I was hoping, if our first date went well (which I thought it did.) after a few more, I was thinking of taking you to see bryan adams. I dont have tickets but I have no one to go. but now I guess that's all water under a bridge now
[10:07:01 am]Leigh:it was a nice night out, between friends, i did and do like you ad would like to be friends but understand if yo udont.....
[10:09:01 am]Jonathan:hmm j/w did you just not feel chemistry? was there something I did or say? just want to know so many I can improve
[10:11:09 am]Leigh:no i was not antig did or said... are a very nnice ad sweet gy............ sometimes peopel sut dont click romanntically
[10:14:02 am]Jonathan:thank you.
[10:14:15 am]Leigh:it wasnt u, it wasntn me,
[10:14:52 am]Jonathan:it was just how you felt. I understand.
[10:15:16 am]Leigh:ok good... ur a really sweet guy, and I mean that
[10:19:55 am]Jonathano you know what you are looking for in a guy? I mean... I know you have ideas, but with all these "dates" and you being an amazing woman who some guy is going to be a very very lucky guy, but do you know?
[10:20:14 am]Leigh:just so u know now i am singing brian adams in my head
[10:22:43 am]Leigh:thank you
[10:23:04 am]Jonathan:but do you know what you are looking for?
[10:23:07 am]Leigh:i dot know i jsut want na guy who makes me laugh smile, and is kind, funy smart annd supportive
[10:23:18 am]Leighomeone who is ambitious,
[10:24:42 am]Leigh:likes kids
[10:25:00 am]Leighomeone who is sweet adn real
[10:25:08 am]Jonathan:I guess all those things are swept aside for chemistry
[10:26:01 am]Leigh:well chemistry goes without saying... someo ne who completes me.... i want to connect with someone, mind, body and soul
[10:29:25 am]Jonathan:and I know you either know this, or dont want to hear it, but that is how I felt ... you are jewish, playful, caring, outgoing, fun, shorter than me... lol. didnt think much of my blindness, or didnt apare to.... Jonathan was just thinking too much
[10:32:16 am]Leigh:no, cuz being blind is only one part of u, i mean admittedly it is hard, but wastn why it wasnnt there
[10:32:30 am]Jonathan:um...so... is there a way to search for just jewish people on here?
[10:32:50 am]Leigh:i thinkn
[10:32:58 am]Leigh:if you put it inn ur filter
[10:33:41 am]Jonathan:you mean the search box? because in that case, it only searches in the text of the profiles.
[10:34:24 am]Leigh:im nont sure.. i closed it out, i just have this open but whenn u search i thik u might be able ot fulter what u are lookinnng for
[10:35:21 am]Jonathano...where do we go from hear leah?
[10:35:34 am]Jonathan:leigh lol
[10:35:52 am]Leigh:leigh yes...
[10:36:02 am]Leigh:well we are frieds if thats cool
[10:36:02 am]Leigh:
[10:41:17 am]Jonathano friends... so you know any cute jewish ladies you could introduce me to? lol
[10:42:50 am]Leigh:i dont have a lot of jewish friends
[10:42:51 am]Leigh:lol
[10:43:01 am]Leigh:craig and ian
[10:43:01 am]Leigh:
[10:43:12 am]Leigh:craigs engaged, well ians half jewish
[10:43:14 am]Jonathan:I dont need a lot of girls, just one lol
[10:43:15 am]Leigh:his mom was jewish
[10:43:18 am]Leigh:lol
[10:43:56 am]Jonathan:um, I ment females lol
[10:45:41 am]Leigh:lol
[10:45:53 am]Leigh:i was just naming the jewish friends i have
[10:46:03 am]Leigh:i dont even have a lot of single friends
[10:47:15 am]Jonathan:I dont have any.
[10:48:41 am]Jonathan:even my coworkers, they are either old or if our age, they are married with kids. my boss just had a baby in december. and when I did a training last week, another house manager was telling me about her new born too. I was like... ug
[10:49:56 am]Leigh:aww
[10:50:10 am]Leigh:ya all hte time people from my high shcool are havingn more babies
[10:50:10 am]Leigh:
[10:51:21 am]Jonathan:I'm not cool, I'm not on facebook so I dont know what's going on with people from my hs. not that I had many friends.
[10:51:51 am]Leigh:i added alot of people from my high school even those i were ot friendnsn with
[10:54:46 am]Jonathan:I had my cousin search for someone for me, she said there was 7 people with that name. She asked me if I remembered what they look like, I said no, she said that on the search, it doesnt give details. so if I was on there, I wouldnt be able to figure out who was someone I knew and who was a person that just so happen to have the same name
[10:54:58 am]Leigh:ah
[10:55:00 am]Leigh:ya
[10:
hmm I think I should get going. I'm hungry. but... it was very nice chatting with you. I know we never exchanged email adresses, so if you ever want to
email me... jna3434*hug* good luck on the date today.

(and she gave me her email)

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sigh, so according to her own words, I am everything she is looking for except the chemistry wasnt there for her.

I'm not sure I could have a friendship. As I told my mom, she reminds me too much of my first love, Lisa, and so I am already "inlove" with who she is.

It is hard, I have this ideal woman in my head and after 10 or so years (A.L. (after lisa) , you never think you are going to find someone who fits that and then you do and she wants to be "just friends"

So something that I dont understand, if we dre friends only because there is no chemistry, how does two friends end up falling in love? I know this happens but mentally, I can not comprehend it. hypotheticly, would there be a posibility that she could somehow wake up some morning and feel chemistry? I dont get how that works.

It is nice to go to a casino. It is nice to go to all these sporting events and concerts. It would be a little bit nicer if I had someone to do it with so I'm not the 3rd wheel or that I'm not doing it with my parents.

previous entry: so you want to hear about my twin's 33rd birthday?

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that sucks that she didn't think there was a connection, but at least you have an answer now. it's always a possibility that as the friendship grows chemistry could grow, but then there would always be the question of "i don't want things to change" so it's a rough spot to be in. i became best friends with a guy i fell deeply in love with, and to this day we're just friends even though we truly love each other. life just never brought us the right timing and now he's married with a 4 year old and i've been with my bf for almost 9 years and we have a 2 year old.

[Cuban Vixen|0 likes] [|reply]

yea, sometiems you just can't help the no-chemistry thing. Nothing you can really do about it
You'll find someone, babe. Don't worry.

[Kate.Monster|0 likes] [|reply]

Sometimes a friendship can develop some chemistry, but I'm sure there is someone out there for you who is 'the one' xx

[BabySteps|0 likes] [|reply]

She really should have said this before instead of stringing you along. I'm glad she finally came clean though.

[»Scarlett's Mommy«|0 likes] [|reply]

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