so... leigh contacted me again

03/06/2011

[9:44:01 am]Leigh:hey
[9:44:07 am]Leigh:how have you been?
[9:47:10 am]Jonathan:hi, I'm... alright
[9:47:28 am]Jonathan:you get the apt situation taken care of?
[9:48:09 am]Jonathan:I... miss talking to you, but I probably shouldnt say that
[9:48:18 am]Leigh:hey
[9:48:21 am]Leigh:ya i moved to medford
[9:48:33 am]Leigho much nicer, i mean its only beenn a week
[9:48:43 am]Leigh:but i was so depressed and unhappy in peabody
[9:48:47 am]Leigh:i barely saw my friennds
[9:48:51 am]Leigh:my roommate was horrible
[9:49:18 am]Leigh:I wasntn a very good friend im sorry
[9:49:18 am]Leigh:
[9:49:27 am]Jonathan:bad roomates can make for a miserable time.
[9:49:35 am]Leigh:it was awful
[9:49:49 am]Leigh:ive been in medford for a week now, but already i feel so much better
[9:50:15 am]Leighully, ( joel) my roommate is awesome, he is wicked nice super helpful, ive never lived with a guy, but i already know it will be less drama
[9:50:49 am]Jonathan:that is awesome *smile* usually... lol guys are less drama
[9:51:57 am]Jonathan:my b day was last monday. went to foxwoods, nyc and then... saw bon jovi on tuesday.
[9:52:41 am]Leigh:happy birthday!!!!
[9:52:47 am]Leigh:how old 30 righgt?
[9:53:08 am]Jonathan:33 lol
[9:53:10 am]Leigh:ya sully ad i just chill in fronnnt of the tv durig the week after work
[9:53:19 am]Leigh:oh thats right i forgot how much older u were
[9:53:24 am]Leigh:i mean nnot that its alot... lol
[9:53:35 am]Jonathanoke
[9:53:44 am]Leigh:im sorry i wasntn a very good friend
[9:53:50 am]Jonathan:and the little people are good?
[9:54:02 am]Leigh:lol
[9:54:38 am]Leigh:i had the flu the week before i moved..... ya it was wicked bad..... i am finall yall better... well i am on anntibiotic for pink eye
[9:54:39 am]Leigh:good times
[9:54:53 am]Jonathan:I wouldnt say you werent a good friend. I was the one who didnt write back
[9:55:07 am]Leigh:tru but i didnt exactly try either...
[9:55:14 am]Leigh:but ya whats up with that? lol
[9:55:15 am]Leigh:
[9:55:22 am]Leigh:jk
[9:58:00 am]Jonathano how many guys have you found that are better than me? a zillian?
[9:59:05 am]Leigh:i went on a few dates with this other guy, but hes just a friend, i feel bad cuz he likes me , but its jsut not there
[9:59:19 am]Leigh:i do have a lunch date today... cringe
[9:59:24 am]Leigh:hes he meetinng me in medford
[9:59:35 am]Jonathan:you know... if things worked out, I was hoping to invite you to my passover sader. when I told my mom about you, she had two questions "is she jewish" "does she like kids"
[9:59:49 am]Leigh:haha
[10:00:08 am]Leigh:im so doe eyed when it comes to babies....
[10:02:07 am]Jonathan:I'm kinda walking on egg shells over here. A lot of things are going through my head...fyi
[10:02:17 am]Leigh:ok?
[10:02:22 am]Leigh:care to share
[10:02:39 am]Jonathan:lol not sure.
[10:04:02 am]Leigh:ok...
[10:06:01 am]Jonathan:like... I was hoping, if our first date went well (which I thought it did.) after a few more, I was thinking of taking you to see bryan adams. I dont have tickets but I have no one to go. but now I guess that's all water under a bridge now
[10:07:01 am]Leigh:it was a nice night out, between friends, i did and do like you ad would like to be friends but understand if yo udont.....
[10:09:01 am]Jonathan:hmm j/w did you just not feel chemistry? was there something I did or say? just want to know so many I can improve
[10:11:09 am]Leigh:no i was not antig did or said... are a very nnice ad sweet gy............ sometimes peopel sut dont click romanntically
[10:14:02 am]Jonathan:thank you.
[10:14:15 am]Leigh:it wasnt u, it wasntn me,
[10:14:52 am]Jonathan:it was just how you felt. I understand.
[10:15:16 am]Leigh:ok good... ur a really sweet guy, and I mean that
[10:19:55 am]Jonathano you know what you are looking for in a guy? I mean... I know you have ideas, but with all these "dates" and you being an amazing woman who some guy is going to be a very very lucky guy, but do you know?
[10:20:14 am]Leigh:just so u know now i am singing brian adams in my head
[10:22:43 am]Leigh:thank you
[10:23:04 am]Jonathan:but do you know what you are looking for?
[10:23:07 am]Leigh:i dot know i jsut want na guy who makes me laugh smile, and is kind, funy smart annd supportive
[10:23:18 am]Leighomeone who is ambitious,
[10:24:42 am]Leigh:likes kids
[10:25:00 am]Leighomeone who is sweet adn real
[10:25:08 am]Jonathan:I guess all those things are swept aside for chemistry
[10:26:01 am]Leigh:well chemistry goes without saying... someo ne who completes me.... i want to connect with someone, mind, body and soul
[10:29:25 am]Jonathan:and I know you either know this, or dont want to hear it, but that is how I felt ... you are jewish, playful, caring, outgoing, fun, shorter than me... lol. didnt think much of my blindness, or didnt apare to.... Jonathan was just thinking too much
[10:32:16 am]Leigh:no, cuz being blind is only one part of u, i mean admittedly it is hard, but wastn why it wasnnt there
[10:32:30 am]Jonathan:um...so... is there a way to search for just jewish people on here?
[10:32:50 am]Leigh:i thinkn
[10:32:58 am]Leigh:if you put it inn ur filter
[10:33:41 am]Jonathan:you mean the search box? because in that case, it only searches in the text of the profiles.
[10:34:24 am]Leigh:im nont sure.. i closed it out, i just have this open but whenn u search i thik u might be able ot fulter what u are lookinnng for
[10:35:21 am]Jonathano...where do we go from hear leah?
[10:35:34 am]Jonathan:leigh lol
[10:35:52 am]Leigh:leigh yes...
[10:36:02 am]Leigh:well we are frieds if thats cool
[10:36:02 am]Leigh:
[10:41:17 am]Jonathano friends... so you know any cute jewish ladies you could introduce me to? lol
[10:42:50 am]Leigh:i dont have a lot of jewish friends
[10:42:51 am]Leigh:lol
[10:43:01 am]Leigh:craig and ian
[10:43:01 am]Leigh:
[10:43:12 am]Leigh:craigs engaged, well ians half jewish
[10:43:14 am]Jonathan:I dont need a lot of girls, just one lol
[10:43:15 am]Leigh:his mom was jewish
[10:43:18 am]Leigh:lol
[10:43:56 am]Jonathan:um, I ment females lol
[10:45:41 am]Leigh:lol
[10:45:53 am]Leigh:i was just naming the jewish friends i have
[10:46:03 am]Leigh:i dont even have a lot of single friends
[10:47:15 am]Jonathan:I dont have any.
[10:48:41 am]Jonathan:even my coworkers, they are either old or if our age, they are married with kids. my boss just had a baby in december. and when I did a training last week, another house manager was telling me about her new born too. I was like... ug
[10:49:56 am]Leigh:aww
[10:50:10 am]Leigh:ya all hte time people from my high shcool are havingn more babies
[10:50:10 am]Leigh:
[10:51:21 am]Jonathan:I'm not cool, I'm not on facebook so I dont know what's going on with people from my hs. not that I had many friends.
[10:51:51 am]Leigh:i added alot of people from my high school even those i were ot friendnsn with
[10:54:46 am]Jonathan:I had my cousin search for someone for me, she said there was 7 people with that name. She asked me if I remembered what they look like, I said no, she said that on the search, it doesnt give details. so if I was on there, I wouldnt be able to figure out who was someone I knew and who was a person that just so happen to have the same name
[10:54:58 am]Leigh:ah
[10:55:00 am]Leigh:ya
[10:
hmm I think I should get going. I'm hungry. but... it was very nice chatting with you. I know we never exchanged email adresses, so if you ever want to
email me... jna3434*hug* good luck on the date today.

(and she gave me her email)

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sigh, so according to her own words, I am everything she is looking for except the chemistry wasnt there for her.

I'm not sure I could have a friendship. As I told my mom, she reminds me too much of my first love, Lisa, and so I am already "inlove" with who she is.

It is hard, I have this ideal woman in my head and after 10 or so years (A.L. (after lisa) , you never think you are going to find someone who fits that and then you do and she wants to be "just friends"

So something that I dont understand, if we dre friends only because there is no chemistry, how does two friends end up falling in love? I know this happens but mentally, I can not comprehend it. hypotheticly, would there be a posibility that she could somehow wake up some morning and feel chemistry? I dont get how that works.

It is nice to go to a casino. It is nice to go to all these sporting events and concerts. It would be a little bit nicer if I had someone to do it with so I'm not the 3rd wheel or that I'm not doing it with my parents.