my mom just gave me shocking and sad news. Newsthat is going to change my life and my family's life.
For the last 30 years, my family has a family tradition of going to Rockport-Gloucester to selebrate the 4th of July with friends of theirs.
It started with renting a room at a hotel for a few days.When we out grew that, my parent rented two rooms. We expanded about 10 years ago. We rent a house near the beach, on the 3rd and 4th we are on my father’s truck in the parades. On the 3rd, after the parade, we go to a pizza place near a beach to watch the fireworks. On the 4th, we go to my parent's friend's house for a BBQ during the afternoon then the parade with the 4th ending by the beach and when night falls, there is a huge bonfire. Bright enough and big enough that even I can see it. After the bonfire it's bac to the friend's house for a second round of a BBQ. They have a hottub in the house, and they have a pool table and a large tv… My best friend John has been coming with us for the last 15 years. Over the years, the house is opened to any of our friends. My sister has had friends stay over. My twin has had friends stay over. Where ever there was room...there was a sleeping body. The last few years my twin and his wife sleep on the kitchen floor. (blow up mattress) My sister's friends sleep down stairs in the area where the bedrooms come together. 3 years ago, John started a new generation when he and his wife brought their son. My sister’s friends has had babies the last few years as well and they’ve been staying the last year and although my twin and his wife who is expecting mid- july, although couldn’t stay over , they’d be up.
… and now, my mom told me that since my grand father is not doing well and my father sees him twice a day, morning and after work, that he wouldn’t be able to travel from Gloucester to Chelsea every day. So as of today, we’re not going. 30 years of family tradition is going to end.
It feels like a part of me is breaking, is leaving, is dying.
I’m dealing with a lot of sadness. My grand father’s health, my father’s stress and the stress he’s putting on my mom and in return, the stress both of my parents are putting on me. all of this that I have to bare. It’s a lot of stress, sadness in this home, in my heart.
I was going to call John to let him know the news but I cant …not yet
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