this week's phone calls with Karen

01/31/2013

Dear my wonderful, fabulous, wicked awesome bloop readers:

Monday on the way to work Karen and I were swapping some childhood stories.
I had got a haircut on this day and it reminded me of when I was a young...
When I was in 5th grade, I had long hair. Well, long for a boy. My hair was down to my shoulders. She said she could picture it and I look cute.
Then when I was in 4th grade, (hmm going backwards here) I remember one day, I think my hair was sticking up and my mom put some jell in my hair and spiked it up. So yup, I went to school with spiked hair. I wasn't sure if I should feel cool or stupid lol. I never did that again though.
Karen was telling me she had blond hair growing up and that now she has dark brown hair. Her brother wants her to dye her hair or bleach blond it, but it's too much work for her and too expensive.
We then got into a conversation about clothes. She got a lot of hand-me-downs. However, since she was always this little thing, all the clothes were baggy on her but it never fazed her. She told me about a watch she wore on her upper arm...because it was that big on her. I told her that she was unique, one of a kind, and still is.
I told her that I always wore red growing up and my twin, Justin wore blue.
We would match, but the colors were different. She thought that was cute. I asked her if she would like to see pictures if I could get some she said "yes! I would love that" so I sent an email to my twin asking if he had any on his computer which he could just send me.

Monday night on her way home from work, we had another deep conversation,

She tells me anything-everything (such as "mother nature came today""the doc told me to drink a lot of water. I had 15 glasses of water and peed 5 times today" me: thanks for that conversion rate.) and I asked her if she is like that with anyone else. she said no. just you. I asked her why? she first said she didn’t know but as she thought about it, she said that I don’t judge anything she ever says no matter what. she goes "you probably won’t believe this, but I'm shy around other people" I told her that I knew that. However, with me, she has no problem just taking my hands or saying whatever is on
her mind.

She is-was so excited Tuesday night on her way home from work. She was telling me that she had pre-ordered a book a few weeks ago that came in
today (Tuesday) There is a book written by the developer of the game
Zelda. She loves Zelda more than anything in the world lol. However, she is not "allowed" to read it yet. She has to wait for Edward to read it cause he wants to read it too. I didn't like hearing that but I bit my tongue. She knows I did.

She also told me about giving Mogi, her dog, a bath. Mogi had ran around in the mud outside for an hour and Karen used her own shampoo and conditioner
on the dog. She said the dog shampoo leaves the dig skin dry-itchy.

"I'm going to slowly, very slowly, pack my things up and or get rid of things I don’t need" ..."I'm 25 years old and it's time for me to start living my life the way I want it instead of how others want me to live my life"
She wants to get out of her situation and move on. she is unhappy and has been for a while but hasn’t done anything about it. By slowly packing and getting rid of things she doesn’t want-need, it will be that much less she'll have to move when she figures out where she's going.

Tuesday night and Wednesday afternoon, we chatted but my mind doesnt want to recall conversations lol

Wednesday night on the way home from work
J: "I wish I could tell you things about you" (it was always Karen who was the one I told and I can’t run to Karen to tell Karen about Karen...right?)
K: Why not?
J: cause that's just weird.
K: you can tell me anything Jonathan.

and then I had a lot of thoughts running around my head and I tried to share them all with her. about confidents and how I am confident at work but not with my own friends and family somehow I jumped to not having confidents in feeding ducks with her but liked how she put bread in my hand and help me feed the ducks. (because with her, I had no fear) then I jumped to well…

J: I'm going to go back to what I started with and that I can’t tell you things about you but I'm going to do it. I remember when we were hugging and you gave me a little kiss. I wanted to give you a real kiss but as I thought about it later, it wasn’t the right time and then I was ok. cause I know that when the time does comes, it will be the right time. it seems that no matter what I do, what I say, it is always the right thing to do at the right time
K: mmhhmm, and?
J: no and.
K: so? what's wrong with that?
J: nothing. *grin*

Then I jumped to telling her about what my brother’s best friend said about what things he considered when moving. and I told her that I did a search for the best places for blind people to live. There was a survey done a few years ago and I was shocked with some of the responses. Charlotte NC was #1 and Austin TX was second followed by two Cali cities and one in MI. NYC, Boston and shell-shockingly, the city I work in, was 15th on the list. Louisville KY was tied for #5.
I also said: I know that it is also better for a child, if there are friends and family around so they can help out when needed.
I then said "did anything I said in the last few minutes make sense?"
she responded with. "I can tell you that I have this huge smile on my face"


Did you know that I left my heart in Indiana?