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I’m afraid to be alone. Every time I am alone, I cry. I feel as though no one except for my immediate family loves me. I also feel as though I can’t blame anyone else for not loving me. I claim to be pretty awesome but the reality is that I am not better than those I claim to dislike. I am dishonest, I cannot be trusted … my heart is cold. I didn’t set out to be like this but being like this is so much easier …

Is it really easier? I mean, ok. I guess so but it is so lonely over here. I used to think I had these great friends … where are they?

My computer has been broken for awhile. I finally found someone to fix it for free. The first thing I did was look at all my pictures from last year. I smiled and I laughed … when I ran out of pictures, I was alone and sad. Those people in those pictures … they’re not around now. That’s a bit of a fib. A few are still around.

I have no one to turn to. If I have a problem … there is no one to tell it to. I am alone in this world and I am falling apart and not a single person that claimed to care about me is around to help me hold the pieces of me together.

What have I done to deserve this life?