Death has come into my mind very regularly in the recent year - my death that is. Let me just first clarify that I am not suicidal. I do not have the right to take my own life. I belong to God.
However, I do not fear death. A few nights ag0, I dreamed of sitting next to two men with guns. The dream at the time was vivid and I didn't know I was in a dream. In the past, such a situation would've induced the "fight-or-flight" response (physiology term for the excited high stressed state). However, I had no response. Instead, I was thinking, "Why don't you hold the gun to my head and shoot me?" I don't care. Just make sure I die.
Although I don't fear death, I do fear being paralyzed or disabled in any way.
I went to Catholic school when I was young and one of my favorite songs back then (although it baffled me) went like this.
Take my hand
We ask you to take our hearts
We love you to take our lives
O Father we are yours, We are yours.
The part about taking our lives baffled me when I was young and made me uncomfortable. Now it makes complete sense, although I would use "I" instead of "we". It's okay to take my life, but please nobody close to me.
Take my hand. I ask you to take my heart. I love you to take my life. O Father I am Yours. I am Yours.
Now that I've been contemplating my death, I would like the following of my death:
1. That my dying will be like a seed falling to the earth, and it will produce plentiful harvest.
2. That I have everything prepared before death.
3. That my death would be peaceful and painless (preferably).
Although I've been contemplating this stuff, I know that it's not yet time.
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