I'm done. My heart's been broken by you for the last time. You want to protect yourself that's all fine and good, as long as you let me protect me. That means I gotta do what I gotta do, and if that's "taking the coward way out" , so be it. At least I will be safe. I just want it all to end. I'm damned no matter which way I go so it really doesn't matter, right? I'm not a vengeful person, and this isn't even about vengeance on you, I'm just trying to protect myself. I'm just trying to survive this, even though every fiber of my being is telling me to give up. I'm just so tired of it all. The fighting, the anger, the hatred. I can't do it. I've been fighting to keep the peace for so long, fighting a losing battle, fighting to keep my sanity, fighting for my relationship, and I can't doo it anymore. I ain't got no fight left in me. |