maybe I'm just being stupid....

04/25/2016

OK so it just hit me. Next month will be a year that my ex and I have had a very bad split. And the weekend to mark that event in my life? I am going to cedar point for the weekend with my current boyfriend. Kinda nervous. Kinda emotionally all over the place. May has been a curse for me since 2007, when my grandpa died. Especially the last week of the month. Since 2010 there has been a major move in my life around the anniversary of his death. Never a good one either. so I'm not sure how I feel about this whole trip. Or if I should even give voice to these doubts, ya know? Idk, maybe I'm just being stupid again. But I always get really anxious taround that time. And it's kinda hard this year. :/