So i was reading on fet a journal entry in k&p about how a subs neediness is what makes us desirable to doms. That just made it ckick in my brain. My husband despises how needy i apparently am, even though i try so hard to remain independent. If wanting time and affection makes me needy, then dammit i will be needy til the day i die. I want you to need me as much as i need you. I want to feel like you still want me around. I need that time from you, that care.....yes, your affection. Why is that so bad? Its who i am, its who i have always been. Its who i will always be. I was always the one to change me for every one else. Just to keep others happy. Its what i do. I aim to please. Everyone knows this. So why try to change that about me after all this time? |