...the title says it all. you shall know by now from my last entry that my night hasn't been...well...the best. i just wanna curl up in a ball and cry. idk if it's me thinking this way or because it's because i got a visitor today. either way it completely sucks. plus the fact that i have virtually no alone time with the man i am going to marry in two years' time, i might have lost a friend of 13yrs because of a touchy subject of my 13yr old cousin thinking of suicide, i can't talk to anyone in my family because none of them are ever objective, half of my family doesn't like the fact that i'm still with my fiance after 3yrs this month, and my mother and i haven't had a decent conversation in, oh i don't know, over a year. all because she chose an abusive a$$hole over me and i called her on many of her lies. my life would make the perfect soap opera. ugh....... and just think. all this and sooooooooooo much more is running through my mind right now. piled in there right along with the fact that i couldn't even celebrate thanksgiving with my love. ugh.......>X@ |