Update. I left my husband in May. We had a fight, things got bad, he put his hands on me and I fought back. Now him and his entire family hate me because they all think I'm lying. So I moved to Milton. My dad's side of the family is there. I fell for a man who basically adored my daddy. He was great. at first. But that turned bad. Worse than my husband actually. I stayed there until first of August. Moved back home. Met some old friends from school, and one from another site. I'm not ready for committment like that again. But I went back on my birth control because I want to be in the habit of taking it before the need arises. Preparedness I like to call it.Well all I keep hearing about is how it's wrong of me to even think about other partners when I am still technically married. Yes, I am still technically married. But he an I have been separated since the anniversary of my grandfather's death. He now lives in Missouri where we went the first time we moved.....jes got a girlfriend. I don't have a boyfriend. I'm not looking for one. But I'm not half bad looking in the right light, and honestly a girls got needs. Better safe than sorry. I'm not out whoring myself around, I'm not having unprotected sex with everything with a sick, and I Damn sure aren't pregnant. So I'm a bad person because I'm taking preventative measure JUST IN CASE?? sorry, I don't want a kid right now. I'll just steal my niece every now and then. But they won't let it die. You're still married you shouldn't be doing that blah blah blah blah.........I'm sorry, I kinda wanna forget that part of my fucking life and how it nod longer exists. But noooooooooo.........I get to keep hearing about a relationship I couldn't fucking save. My mistake. My failure. Thrown up in my face now 3times in a week and a half. Fuck this. I'll walk my ass somewhere. I can't deal with this. I'm trying to move on. Leave me be or let me fucking die........ |
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