Ok, so everybody in my life was right. Having dinner with Travis's mom wasn't bad! There were a couple of awkward moments. Like when we were opening our fortune cookies, she said to add "in bed" at the end. I've heard this before, but coming from his mom was a little weird! I probably made it awkward, because my mind went to "in bed" with Travis. LOL It was nice talking to someone who understands how I feel. When Travis first left for Afghanistan we heard from him every other day or so, but its been 12 days since either of us has heard from him. She said it has been harder for her this time, because there's less contact with Travis. When he was in Iraq he had internet in his room, so he could email a lot, and he got to call home about once a week or so. We mostly talked about Travis, but we talked about life, and she told me fun stories about Travis as a little kid.
I ran into my ex-boyfriend yesterday. Not that that's unusual. He was my high school boyfriend, and our parents live next door to each other, so we usually run into each other when we are both home. We've had a weird relationship since we broke up almost 4 years ago. At first we couldn't even stand to talk to each other, so there was no contact between us. Then he still had feelings for me, but I didn't for him. But now, when we run into each other, we can talk about anything. David's been having a hard time lately, he couldn't really explain things too clearly, but his best friend just moved away and he feels like life is going to be much harder now without him. He said his friend helped him deal with life, and school, and his girlfriend.
When I was leaving to go meet Travis's mom, David asked for my phone number, and asked if maybe I would have time to hang out, not just talk when we run into each other. I gave him my number, but I don't know if I want to actually hang out with him. Last time we actually made time to hang out was almost a year and a half ago, he had a girlfriend at the time and I was single. He brought up the past, and how much things meant to him. He said he still had feelings for me, he just said all the right things, and things ended up happening. I'm not worried that something would happen between us now, but I'm worried if we start hanging out he'll bring up the past again, and say things that make it too awkward to be around him. I guess the thing is, I want David in my life again, as a friend. He used to be my best friend, we told each other everything, and he's helped me through a lot of tough situations, I want to be there for him now. But I don't want to live in the past, talking about the past is one thing, but thinking about how great it was and how you wish things were more like they were then is another...
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