Soo this is me
by beautefulletdown

Hopeing for a better today

01/12/2010

Love&hope is all i got

So iv been slacking on bloop but i got time so i decided to update

yesterday was a pritty good day....it was my 21st birthday!!!

and i really didnt do a dang thing! lol. but im wateing till Friday....no one wants to party on a monday night

lol. I finally got to see my mom i no its weard but i havent seen my momfor like two weeks..and well im a mommas girl

so that was nice. got to get out of the apartment. and im still sick i wish that this damn cold would just go away. iv been fighting it off with nyqull! lol. Got to hang out with some one that i havent seen cence high school. so that was cool. me and her and my mom and my neice all went to the store. but first we went threw the drive threw at McDonalds and she, my neice fell asleep in her car seat with a cheese burger sprawled out around her lap

it was funny! lol. I still havent told this guy that i really like him and well its cuz i havent seen him but for some reason every day these fealings get stronger and it kinda sorta sucks

lol. i dont know what it is about him that i like its really unexplaneible. i cant even tell my self why? lol, but hes such a good person

and i wish that i could just get the curige to tell him how i feal

but he might be comeing to my birthday party and all my other friends lnow how i feal so i hope nothing ambarassing happens lol. but ill be drunk any ways so i guess I'll have an excuese if my face turns red...the little one is going with my mom that day and shes staying the night so im like really looking forwared to this little brake im just glad that i will have a house full of people. its so weard wen shes gone and its just me here i cant do it. I dont get how my sister can do it..i dont get how you can do something so great as bring another life into this world, a life a nother creation from god....and want absoultly nothing to do with it! it makes me so sick to my stumoch that she dose not care enough about her daughter to straighten her act up! there are so many people that CANT have kids and she can, shes prago agein...and shes dumb. shes deep into drugs and what she said was shes not the one that has to raise the baby so why should she care how the baby comes out. I wanted to knock all here teeth out after she said that. she has no respect for any one not even her self! so for those of you reading this and those of you who pray please pray that that baby comes out healthy and unharm from the crap shes doing. A child is the most helpless person, and one thats not even born yet its not fair to make them fight for there life. it makes me sick it really dose. so any ways i think i might firned out today whats goin on with my neice, like wen the adoption starts. i cant wate for it all to be offical! its just takeing way to long. i dont think one person should haf 6 months to screw up there life befor a judge decides what he wants to do to them. its gottin really old, but justice is comeing and wen it dose ill probley be gloting