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In The Secret Garden
by Ivy Divine

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03/12/2015






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      Saturday is my birthday so I've been trying to make plans this week. It's been a bit frustrating because my own friend I see a lot, doesn't want to go far in case her son cries for her. Now mind you I have been trying to get her out for months, and when we stayed out till 2 am on Valentine's Day he was just fine. Now all the sudden he might wake up crying and she needs to make sure she can get home easier. Ugh. Kids cry. Him crying for a little bit one night won't kill him. He's already over 2. Nothing I want to do is near where she lives though. And honestly, why should I change what I want to do for her? It's not her birthday, it's mine. It's ONE night a year. It won't kill her or anyone else to go have fun and let me do something I want. I would do the exact same for her on her birthday. I'm feeling a little frustrated right now because I don't feel I should have to change what I want to do on my b-day for other people. I do SO much for everyone I know, I bend over backwards for them, so it would be nice to get one day that I get to do what I want.



      My plans so far are lunch with the kids, out to play mini golf with the kids, then possibly dinner for just the adults, and then out somewhere for just the adults. I was hoping to go dancing but they closed the one club we liked and the rest are kinda eh. So we're thinking maybe a pool hall or bar with pool tables so we can drink and play pool. It's either that or a casino with a club or a bar in it. And honestly, I don't really want to do a casino. I don't want to risk losing any of my money. Gambling isn't something I find fun anymore. I'm looking for something fun to do with good company that involves alcohol. I'm not sure if playing pool all night would do that though. Sigh. Who knew my birthday plans would be so complicated? Mainly I just want to have a good time. My birthday usually sucks and has been really awful for as many years back as I can remember it. So I'd really like to change that pattern and have a good birthday this year.



      That friend I mentioned a few entries ago, the really intense know it all who is never wrong, well she still is ignoring the message I sent her and not speaking to me. I was nice enough to tag her in my post about my b-day plans because I refuse to be as petty as her. But clearly she isn't going to grow up. I invited a bunch of girls I have on Facebook but who I haven't gotten to know super well in person. I want to open the door to new friends in my life, especially positive ones. Honestly I am tired of negativity and negative people. I know a little what I want with my life and part of that is great people who are great influences. I don't want to be stuck with crappy friends who drag me down and make me miserable. So honestly if she wants to act that way good riddance! It's not my loss at all. I feel sad about it because we've been friends for a while and I don't like giving up on people, but what choice has she left me? She refuses to even read the message I wrote to her or talk to me about things. There is nothing else I can do. I'm hoping I can meet more great people and add to my friends! I need better people in my life for sure.



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I hope your friend changes her minds about your bday plans. You're right, it's 1 days a year and her son is going to be fine... Smh

Sorry your friend is being so petty..

[fearless♥love|0 likes] [|reply]

You know, if I could even possibly make even enough time to go out for a couple of hours without the kids, I would be tickled to death. Crying or not, they get their time, us mommas need ours too.

[Darenda|0 likes] [|reply]

after reading that, I just want to give you a big hug.
I wish I had positive people around me and people who want to do things I want instead of doing things they want and their way but I don't have many frfriends, at all.

I hope you have an awesome fun birthday and if you happened to get some yummy sex too, all the more orgasmic

[A RedSox FanStar|0 likes] [|reply]

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