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~♥ Today I'm Thankful For... Ibuprofen. After my dental work I'm thankful to have it.
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I had a root canal last Monday. I had a bump in my mouth and I knew the root had finally died. My new dentist is awesome though and told me there was no need for a crown, he'd just do a permanent filling. The last dentist I had wanted to do a root canal and a temporary crown, but hadn't even cleared a permanent crown with my insurance and got mad when I wouldn't let her do the procedure without that. I'm very happy with my current dentist! He did a great job. It took 3 hours because my root was super thin and he wanted to make sure he got it all. I had a filling that needed to be replaced and a new cavity, so I went in yesterday to get those done. I had to get 5 shots and was numb up to my eye. :/ It was much quicker, but I was in a lot more pain. I had to pick up a prescription for high strength ibuprofen to take for it. My jaw is still sore and tender but it's a little better. I was numb for 4 hours yesterday! I'm working really hard on my dental health so hopefully I don't have to get anymore work done. Ugh.
We spent the weekend with the Boyfriend again. We had a really good weekend. We watched movies, the two of them made homemade bread, and we relaxed a lot. It was really nice. He and I had some great sex too, a lot of it actually. And we did some BDSM as well, mostly spanking again. Sunday night he got all dumb again and I just sat quietly through his absurd ranting until I fell asleep. It even started stupid. When we do BDSM we discuss everything we do to see what was liked, disliked, the after affect, what we could do differently, etc. Well for some reason I haven't been able to take serious spankings like I used to be able to in weeks. I don't know why, nor does he. I suggested he space out the hits so there is a few seconds of break between them so the pain goes down some. I seem to be able to take more like that. Well Sunday night he had me bent over the kitchen table and he hit like I asked at first, then started hitting back to back. I started yelling it hurt and to stop, and I was mad because I was in pain so I told him he should've listened to me when I said not to hit like back to back.
Well he got all butt hurt about it and was going off on a tangent about how I won't let him be a Dom, and how I try to take control all the time, that I play games, and I want to pull the strings. I saw what his fit was and said that he was speaking immaturely and I wasn't going to talk to him like that. He wrapped his arms around me so I just sat there and said nothing until I finally fell asleep in his arms, him talking the whole time. I was so annoyed at his childish behavior. I get it, he's still new to a lot of the stuff we do, but it's frustrating to get blamed for things I've never done. I felt like he was blaming me for stuff his ex's had done. I hate that. But arguing with him is pointless so I said nothing. I'm not getting drawn into that. He's not perfect, I get that. I just feel like I have to be the adult so much. It's tiresome. I'm having to be the adult with him, with my daughter, with my business, with our homes, etc. After I started drifting off I could hear his tone of voice change and he started saying how much he loves me, etc. I'm hoping these nights don't happen often because it's annoying to me. But it is part of a relationship and you take the good with the bad. I'm in an adult relationship and I'm completely committed to it so we'll just keep working through things as they come up.
Monday morning I just stayed calm but nothing was said about Sunday night. I wasn't going to bring it up before we had to work so I went about my day to day stuff, although I was much more subdued and less expressive. I tried hard not to show him that. He spent the day trying to tell me and show me how much he loves me. I don't know what all he remembers from Sunday night, but it was clear from his actions he was trying to make up for it. We're going over tonight so I guess we'll see how it goes when it comes up, because I'm sure it will come up. Hopefully he listens in a calm way. I am still in pain with my mouth so I don't want any extra stress right now. I can see that I've grown so much because normally I would be all pissed off the next day and it would turn into a fight. Instead I just kept everything business as usual until we could calmly discuss it in person. That's a big deal for me. I'm learning how to control myself and my emotions better. And my mouth! I'm really proud of myself for that.
Yesterday he sent me a text with a pic of the red sparkly collar I've been wanting for weeks. I feel like he got it to make up for Sunday night, but I can't be sure. I'm very happy he got it. It's really pretty and red is my favorite color. I can't wait to have it on. Although I'm so tired and in pain today that I just don't feel the desire to have a collar on like I normally do. :/ My gums hurt inside where he put the needles in deep to numb me. I really want to go to bed but I can't, I work till 3:30 today and I have errands to run after that before we go to his place. I so need a rest night though. Hopefully I can sleep really well tonight! I slept okay last night but was up a few times. This is a busy week because it's the Boyfriend's birthday, our 2 month anniversary, and Father's Day. So it's just super jam packed. I hope I'm feeling better before Thursday because I want to be feeling better for his birthday for sure!
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