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In The Secret Garden
by Ivy Divine

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11/25/2015






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~♥ Today I'm Thankful For...     My new life and the new journey I'm on.




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     I am doing the "Beta Testing" thing so I have NO idea how this entry will come out. (I hated the Beta thing so I turned it off and redid my entry old style.) Long time no update! A lot has happened since my last post, which I don't even know when that was... The Boyfriend and I are still together. We've been going together for over 7 months now. Seems like a lifetime has passed. In October we had yet another new manager at my apartment complex, this one was a total bitch. She decided that people on month to month leases should be charged extra, and told me I had to sign a 6 month or 1 year lease, or she'd "charge me whatever she wanted" on top of my rent. Needless to say I was NOT happy. The kiddo and I were spending most nights with the Boyfriend at his place, and he had repeatedly told e to just move in with him. So he repeated it again and this time I decided to do it. We've spent the last month and a half doing just that - packing and moving.



     I have to say, I truly hate moving. It is a LOOOOONG and drawn out process. Because he is in a lease until the middle of April, I got a storage unit and paid for it until May 1st. And we have been moving into his small apartment since. I am very happy with the decision mostly. Sometimes it's hard, it is such a small space compared to my place, but I love living together the 3 of us as a family. We've had a lot of adjustments through this whole process. We've re-homed our boy cat with a friend of ours. She has a boy cat that I cat-sat once for 2 weeks while she was on a work trip. The boys had a fantastic time together, chasing each other around and destroying my home. (o.O) So she was the first person I thought of to ask. Thankfully she was happy to take him in and he's settled into his new home. I miss him a lot but I knew a while ago that he needed a bigger home and a better playmate. Our girl cat doesn't have the same playful spirit and gets so mad when he tries to play with her like that. He deserves an amazing home. And now he has one. <3



      Our girl cat still doesn't have a home yet. :/ I'm still working on it. The local animal rescue groups don't want to help. I'm not really sure what they are there for if they don't want to help people... I'm hoping we can still find her a good home in time. I don't want to have to take her back to the city shelter because they do put animals down. All the places that don't won't help us. I'm going to email them all and try to bribe them with cat/pet stuff including a cat tree. Maybe that willl get her a temporary home. I hate having to do this. I truly do. But life doesn't always work out as you planned.



      Like I said, I love this new journey but there are a lot of hard bumps in the road. I've been challenged a lot during all of this. I know that once we pass these few hurdles, things will be so much easier for a while. I'm hanging onto that with a death grip! I need the break from all the stress. I just need a break. Next Monday is my last day at my old apartment. After that, I plan to sleep in the rest of the week when I'm not working and try to unwind. I've been under so much stress and so overwhelmed. I need the down time. I hope to get even more of that during Christmas time!



      Speaking of holidays, we've been celebrating a bunch of them together and they have all been special since they are the "firsts." In 2 days time it will be Thanksgiving here in the US. We are doing our first Thanksgiving dinner together as a family. <3 It's so special, these holidays together, because he and I both had to wait so long to find each other. I think that's a good thing in the fact that we appreciate it all so much more. It was a hardship for us to go without for so long. So we really value what we have. We got our first Christmas tree this week. I couldn't wait, haha. We're going to decorate for Christmas right after Thanksgiving. I'm super excited for Christmas with him. It's hard to do Christmas when you are single and alone year after year. This year I feel like I finally got what I've always dreamed of and thought I'd never have.



      My kiddo is doing very well. Of course she's SUPER excited for Christmas haha. She adores the Boyfriend and is so excited to have him in her life. We all do so well together. Meant to be is the best description. It sounds corny and cheesy, but it's spot on. Can you believe she's already 9? Sometimes it's hard to believe. She's finishing up 4th grade and beginning 5th grade. She reads at a 9th grade level, possibly higher. Keeping her in reading material is a challenge to say the least! I am very thankful for our local library because we usually have 100-150 books checked out at one time. She goes through a lot of books!



      The Boyfriend and I aren't doing as much BDSM anymore. I think it's because life happened and I don't think we need it on the level we did before. I think we were both in this place of passion and need in the beginning. Not to say we don't have passion now, but we've been together so long that we know each other and have settled in a place of contentment and comfort. We still do some occasionally, but with everything going on it's hard to find time. At the end of the day we'd rather relax and unwind. I think when we move again in the spring into a bigger place, we will do more of it. It is something you do and for some of us it is who we are. There are aspects of it that don't go away no matter if the belt comes out or not. These are the aspects of it being a part of our person. Such as him being the Dom and me the sub. While those roles may not be as focused on in the forefront as before, they are still a part of our core beings. So general behavior reflects that. And there are some parts of it that we always make time for. Those things are special to me because I get to rest in the comfort of them like a warm blanket. It's a place of peace and self identity.



      My life is unique but it's just a different flavor of the same story we're all living. I'm thankful for the day to day boring stuff, the down time to play video games or watch TV, and the home to come home to that I actually miss when I'm away from too long. At the end of my work day I am SO ready to go home. If I have to work late it makes me antsy and impatient to get home. I like that I love my home and the people in it so much. It feels so much more whole with the 3 of us all adding to it and sharing in it together. <3



      I love my life and I am truly blessed to have it. I am so very lucky to have found my soul mate and to get such a great family. This is what I've always wanted. I finally get my happily ever after.



ღ Belle Ivy Rose ⊰  



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it's wonderful to hear what you have been up to.
I'm still holding on to hope that what you have is what I'll have someday and hopefully with Karen but you never know where life takes you.

RYC: thanks for reading, it wont get better untill I move because my parents are who they are and they're only getting older...lol

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I am so glad to hear that you are still so happy with your boyfriend.
It must be so nice to feel a sense of security and stability in your relationship!
Your daughter sounds a lot like me when I was her age! I was reading at about that level and my mom was taking me to the library every weekend. Lol. What kind of books does she like to read?

It's so great to hear that you are happy...and that landlord at your old apartment sounds retarded. Glad you got out of there!

How was Thanksgiving? I really can't wait to get a Christmas tree with Gary...of course, it will be a small one, but I don't mind. His dog would probably eat it (he ate my birthday candle, lol, he'd probably eat anything!)

Good to read something from you! Missed you around here!

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RYC: John and I broke up a few months ago. I met Gary in mid September on an online dating site, Oasis Active. I messaged him telling him how much I enjoyed his profile (it was seriously one of the few intelligent and attractive ones on there). We had our first date on the 21st of September and it went really well, obviously. I've been spending most weekends with him.

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