I am so jealous and it makes me want to hurl.

03/21/2013

I watched you fall apart and chased you to the end. I am left with emptiness that words can not defend. You will never know what I became because of you. And you held it all but you were careless to let it fall. You held it all and I was by your side, powerless. ♥


I can say what ever the fuck that I want to. I hate all of these little bitches who think that they will ever reach the parts of you that I can reach without even trying to. I am so jealous and it makes me want to hurl. I wish that I had never met you. I want to punch you in the face and than be the one to bandage it up. At least than I was miserable on general reasons and not because of some body in particular. I hate myself for giving a shit. I want to be hard and cold. ''And I know that you like to hurt me. You say that I am not worth it. So I pop another pill.''. Fuck me. I am going to take some more Vicodin and just hope to God that I feel better. Fuck it.