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He's my former love

08/26/2011

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I'm married. Kids.
My heart hold's a burden. I dream of my ex boyfriend. I text him & we talk on yahoo, secretly. I've called him. My heart is crying for him. I miss him so much. We broke up on good terms. He loves me, I love him.
But I refuse to allow my home to be the broken home. SoI stay with my husband. DON'T GET ME WRONG - I love love love love love my husband. But it's different, he was my first love & I never fully got my heart back.
He's my forever love.
I don't know what to do. The thought of telling my ex to go away make's my soul scream & cry. But the thought of leaving my husband makes me ache.
Not like I could be with my ex, really. He has a gf, he lives a few states away, he won't move because his kid lives there with his ex wife, and I can't move because I could never take my kid's away from their father..he's a wonderful dad, he just lacks the good husband part.
Of course I guess i'm not such a good wife either. I was, once.
I haven't cheated pshyically though.

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Emotional cheating really isn't that different from physical cheating. And the pain you're causing your husband when he finds out (because, let's face it, they always seem to find out) is going to be insane. You have to make a choice, because it's not fair to your family for your heart to not be with them.

[Emily the StrangeStar|0 likes] [|reply]

its kinds cheating when its emotionally too - but perhaps you could EXPLAIN to your husband about this? they can be pretty understanding

[The Dreaming Wife |0 likes] [|reply]

Emotionally cheating is the same, if not worse, than physically cheating. You need to leave your husband, or drop your "forever love" or whatever the fuck melodramatic title you gave it. It's not fair to him.

[Anonymous SourceStar|0 likes] [|reply]

/seconded

[American|0 likes] [|reply]

Cut. It. Out. Keep your ex as a fond memory and appreciate what you have.

[Hidden DepthsStar|0 likes] [|reply]

u don't love him b.c if u did, u wouldn't be doing this.. At all!

[fearless♥love|0 likes] [|reply]


I only have one question. What made you guys break up in the first place? Maybe you need to remind yourself of those reasons.

[lithium layouts.Star|0 likes] [|reply]


I can't stand women who stay with men "because of the children". I'm a product of that kind of relationship and from the time I was 13 until I was 21, I prayed every night that my parents would get a divorce. Coming from that type of relationship, I can tell you that it doesn't always work and sometimes, it does a lot more damage to the children than you think. Kids pick up on those kinds of things especially when they're becoming teenagers.

I think you're in denial about "love love love love" loving your husband. I get the first love thing, but if it was a long time ago... It's supposed to have been gone by now and you need to put a lot of distance between you and your ex. It's wrong what your doing and you know it's wrong. What if your husband is doing exactly what your doing? How would you like that?

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