What's your secret?
by BloopSecrets

Knowing That I Will Die

03/02/2012

I have always known that I would die young. It used to terrify the hell out of me and keep me up at night. But something happened, not sure what exactly, but I am at peace with it now. I am not even scared. I just worry about my kids, I don't want them to grow up without a mother. But maybe that is why God gave me such an amazing husband for a father to them.

I just hope that they grow up happy. I embrace every moment trying to make up for what I will miss if my gut instinct is true. Every night when they go to bed we all cuddle in the same bed for a half an hour just talking and giggling and snuggling. They are so beautiful. I really hope they remember how much I love them. Even if nothing bad does end up happening to me.

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Sounds like you're giving them a good life. That's the kind of thing you remember, whether you lose a parent at a young age or not.

[Poetic Justice|0 likes] [|reply]

I hope you don't die young. You sound like an amazing mother.

[Khoquetish, Inc.|0 likes] [|reply]

Sounds like your living to the fullest, which is what everyone should do

[Mommy2Aiden|0 likes] [|reply]

It sounds like what happened to you is acceptance. I was told that once we accept a given situation that we cannot change, it makes it easier for us to deal with. When I was told this I wanted to smack the person but I have come to learn how true this is. I wish you the best of luck.

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