I smoked in front of a guy I liked. I work at a convenience store, and they sell cigarettes, so I have to hand them out to people all day, every day. Sometimes it's okay, but other times, I can't do it without thinking "ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly." I just think it's an ugly habit, and I'm so fucking embarrassed that I did it in front of someone that significant. I know it's irrational, but that's why it's my secret. |