I was with a guy for over a year. Things didn't turn out the way I expected so I had to end it. It was for my own good and probably for his too. After him, I didn't want to be with anyone else. I was done getting my heart broken by guys who are nice for 3 months and then change completely to show you the real side of them.
During the summer I was not with anyone. I was in the single life working and trying to focus on my future schooling that would take up the next 4 years of my life at college. I felt like I was not attracted to any guys at all. It was weird, but I didn't care. I didn't want to go to college in a relationship because I felt like I needed to put all my attention on school. I knew that if I would be in a relationship I would have so many other stresses.
By the end of the summer I met this guy through my best friend. I personally thought he was a fool. Yeah he made me laugh, but it was just weird. I didn't really talk to him. After the second time hanging out, he told me he was interested. By the day before he left for school, I was all his.
It was amazing how good he made me feel when I didn't want anything to do with him. I wasn't looking for him at all. The day after everything was official, I didn't know what I got myself into. It's been a few months now and things are great. We've grown to love each other and I'm happy that has happened, but there are still times where I feel like I've done the wrong thing to be with him. I don't know why either because he makes me so happy and I feel like I would be completely lonely without him. I've never been through something that was unexpected like this before. I don't know what will come of it... |
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