as the silence drones on, my thoughts become louder and louder.

I really don't know what to update about. Things have been pretty much the same since I've been home. I really just find myself up until the wee hours of the night, literally every single night. I believe the earliest I've gone to bed since I've been home is... 1:30 AM. That's ridiculous. I hate feeling like this. I go to lay down and try and sleep, then I toss and turn in the dark for 2 hours while my mind runs on overdrive until I finally just get sick of it and get up for a few more hours. I don't know, I think it's because I have nothing to occupy my mind...

I absolutely cannot wait to start working June 1st. I have orientation for 2 days, and then my first volunteer day that Friday! I just need to get another letter of recommendation, a TB test and then a background check on my license and social security card, which I'm sure will be cleared. I feel like I'll be back to myself once I'm working 35-40 hours a week and consistently keeping myself busy.

My favorite got eliminated from American Idol. I was so upset. ): I can't stand Haley. She screams at me, growls and is bitchy. Someone please get her out this week. Scotty (my 2nd favorite) better win or I'm going to be thoroughly upset. Yeah, I'm lame. Sue me for loving this ridiculous show.

If I would have studied abroad this spring, I would be in Amman, Jordan right now. A few girls that went from my class keep posting pictures and I feel so undoubtedly jealous. I refuse to not study abroad before I leave college. I'm hoping that in 2 years they'll have this trip again and I can go then. They've only been there for like, 5 days and it already seems like the experience of a lifetime. I honestly can't express how jealous and mad at myself I am for not signing up for the trip. Ughhh. Everything happens for a reason, though. So I'm hoping another opportunity will present itself while I'm at Grand Valley and hopefully I'll have the experience of my life as well before I graduate! (:

I put purple streaks in my hair. I'm in love with them. I like them 10 times more than the red I used to put in! Relay for Life was yesterday. It was so incredibly tiny, and I wasn't on a team or committee this year, but it felt like I was! I went up there to help out and ended up doing what I did last year basically. I set up for Luminaria and I helped run Entertainment and Activities. Despite it being short, it was still fantastic. Tonight I hung out with Ashley and Alyssa, and it was wonderful. We played euchre with my dad, a game of SkipBo, then we went to Meijer, picked up two cartons of strawberries, chocolate fruit dip, Arizona teas, a Cosmo and came back to my house, watched YouTube videos, read through the magazine, and ate both containers of strawberries in their entirety. It was wonderful. <3

I have a consultation for my wisdom teeth tomorrow, but my parents have been absolutely NO fucking help in getting the insurance information so I can go. I'm so freaking frustrated with them. They keep telling me to just "call the dentist, Lynn will be able to help you!" Why don't you have the damn dental insurance information? I mean, really. Keep better track of your shit. Gah, sorry, this was a totally random placed rant, but I am just so fed up right now! ):<

I'm going to try and sleep now so I can wake up at a decent hour to try and get this insurance thing figured out.

Until next time!