I don't want to be a footnote in someone elses happines

02/06/2009

So, I went to family planning today. I found out that i'm about 6 weeks pregnant. And I should be due some were around October 2nd.

I made fun of Jake for forever telling him that the baby was going to be born on his birthday. lol. That way it could steal his thunder. It was pretty funny.

Tomorrow I have to go to the Medicade office and get that back. Because it ran out at exactly 10 am, as of yesterday. That's was gay. lol. I also have to go to the Wic office because Tajuana said that I should.

Last night me and Christy were on the phone with each other looking up baby stuff. There was a BEAUTIFUL crib that I want. Real bad. It wasn't the traditional white one or anything. It was like, this burgundy colored wood, and it was pretty. It also folds out into a bed when they get older.

We found some other stuff too. Nothing special, unless you count the tiny baby shower. lol. THAT was pretty spiffy.

Me and my mom are fighting a lot less. And Jake held Derek and played with Cody today. He even helped him with his math. It was real cute.

I didn't get to watch him play with the baby because I passed out on my Gramas couch and NO ONE woke me up. Even though we had a thousand things to do today. They said that I need to take a breather and rest now, because i'm pregnant.

But just because i'm having a baby doesn't mean I can slack off. In fact, that means I need to work harder twords getting shit done. You can't dilly dally when a baby is coming. And I only have 9 months to get ready for this.

Plus I still have a life.

I cleaned Brandans room for mom today and then did the living room and the kitchen. It sucked but was nice at the same time. Because I got really dizzy and my stomach started to hurt, but I felt accomplished and it gave me time to think.

I keep getting that I"M GONNA PUKE feeling too. Which is bullshit. It never comes. But I hate it.

After I get my medicade back, I schedule my appointment with that doctor Tajuana wants me to go to. I hate that it's a guy, because I don't want another dude feeling around down on my va-j-j. But they say that he's the best. And I want the best. So it'll have to work.

Other than all that. Today was tiresome, but still good.
I got to see Derek and Cody and hang out with Robert and My grama. Even my grandpa was nice.
Jake talked to Robert a lot and him, Robert, and Leonard put Dereks baby swing together. It was cool.

Hmm, that's all for now.
Later <3